Oh, Hi there! I forgot I had a life briefly.
Ugh. I can't stop changing my mind/thinking about what I want to do with my life.
So I am just going to once again, use my blog as more of a public thought organizer.
Okay... to help me decide, I am going to make a list of Goals/Things I want in life, and I am not going to hold anything back:
I want to change society to fit me, and not change me to fit society.
I want to have children.
I want to travel.
I want to be a life-long student.
I want to teach.
Okay. Those seem... all completely different.
The first part, is where I want to leave my legacy on earth. I need to change things. People do have identical thoughts to me, they just don't want to admit it.
FOR EXAMPLE.
Everybody pretty much hates work/their job, or at least can think of better things they'd rather do with their time, right? But we need money, right? To buy things. Well, let me just drag out my ole' communist brain right now.
Why the actual fuck are we working if we don't like it?
For money.
Why do we need money?
Because. Thats... the way things are. Thats what society is.
People don't want to admit they are communist, because of the negative connotations with it.
Okay, my mom hates when I talk different from society's norms... but today we had this conversation:
Mom: I don't want to go back to work.
Me: Then don't.
Mom: But I have to.
Me: No you don't...
Mom: I need the paycheque
Me: Why?
Mom: Money.
Me: Why is money important?
Mom: Because...
EXACTLY. RIGHT. THERE.
Boom, I'm right.
But I am not saying people shouldn't work. I am just saying that if one doesn't want to work and is unhappy, then they should stop. Either get a new job, or find a new purpose in their life.
What was my point? Oh yeah. I am going to change society.
My other goal I have is I want to have children. I guess this is pretty straight forward.
Same with Travel. That is also straight forward.
I want to be a life-long student. Okay. So. I basically want to learn forever.
I just have this odd curiosity to constantly learn. I love learning. Learning is food to the brain, and my brain is always hungry. So I hope to learn forever. Whether I am actually enrolled in university for a long time, or I am just reading and making notes all of the time, I'll be happy.
The last one... is complicated. I want to teach.
Now. I want to teach people... I WOULD LIKE to be a teacher. But I am sorry, but I am not going to be a highschool teacher anymore because it is too restricting. I was looking over the teacher code of ethics thing, but no, just no. I am not going to sign my name on a piece of paper to say "I will follow all of these dumb fucked up rules".
No.
But I still want to teach. My ideas.
Maybe I will give seminars. Maybe I will educate, outside of the school system.
Either way. I will teach.
Anyways.
This solves nothing.
I guess I should just roll with it. Go with it, see what happens. Which is what I will probably do.
Until then, I am going to just tell people I am going to be a politician + author when they ask what I am going to do with my life. Because its true. I'm probably going to shoot for somewhere around there, just to get my ideas out.
Who knows though.
Life... it really doesn't even matter too much. Which is why I am making it matter for me.
1. Just because someone doesn't like to work/doesn't like their job doesn't mean that they're a communist. In the ideal communist society, people would still work (and would maybe even be doing a job they didn't like), they just wouldn't get paid with money. Instead, they would have everything they need (shelter, food, health care, education, etc.) provided to them in return for their labour. Most people that simply don't like their jobs aren't advocating for that ideal.
ReplyDeleteI will, however, agree that most people probably find more merit to communist and/or socialist ideas (even if they disagree with them) than they lent on.
2. "I am just saying that if one doesn't want to work and is unhappy, then they should stop. Either get a new job, or find a new purpose in their life."
You make that sound like it's such obvious option when it really isn't. If you've been paying attention to the news, you'll know that the current economic situation makes it very difficult to find a job right now. If you have a job and need your paycheque to pay for things like shelter and food, quitting your job without already having an offer for another one or having a very large amount of savings isn't exactly realistic right now because the chances of them finding a new job shortly after quitting their old one is fairly slim. And if a person voluntarily quits their job, they cannot collect EI and getting welfare would also be extremely difficult.
Yes, ~following your dreams~ or ~finding purpose in life~ is great, but when my choice is between that or having a roof over my head...well, not being homeless is going to win every single time. After all, how can I find a purpose in my life when I'm too worried about finding money to pay rent or where my next meal is coming from? (see also: Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs).
I disagree with your idea of the "ideal communist society". I'm not exactly speaking about a general communist society, that can be the most easily imagined in Canada. I'm talking more about an anarcho-communist society. So things like health care and education wouldn't exactly be public.
DeleteMy idea about jobs is sort of that people should be working for themselves, not for other things. Even if working for things other than money. People should be working for themselves. What I mean by this is that people just need to deny society's push to have to be employed. If they want to be employed, then be employed.
Yes, I understand quitting your job isn't considered "realistic" or ideal by society but thats the whole point, in a sense. It isn't "realistic" in this society. But why does it need to be realistic? Why can't it be a normal drastic move? Sure you may not have a roof over your head, but why does that matter? Just to protect yourself from weather, and be warm and cool and have technological goodies? To FIT IN? To this society, I suppose that matters. But to people like me, it doesn't matter as much. Sure, luxuries are nice. But I would rather have my idea of happiness than society's idea of happiness - a cozy couch + fridge with a spouse and child. This isn't the 1950's anymore, and yet, it still seems like it.
I just think that people should get their priorities in life straight. If your priority is having a roof over your head, and you want to work at a job you may or may not be happy at, that is your choice, great. But I just think that if you would rather be unemployed and without a house, then that should also be an option... somewhere. Obviously in Canada people will look at you cross-eyed for pretty much anything abnormal you do.
I guess my overall point here is that there are collective ideas of what society says you can and can't do in life, (especially working) and that it shouldn't be assumed that EVERY Canadian citizen wants this life (to go to school and learn then get a job and have a family then retire and die) which is basically what we are learning nowadays happens in life, in a very simple form.
I just don't see why getting a job is the #1 priority. Its all we learn from day 1 when we are asked as children "What do you want to be when you grow up?". Well, I think I'll be happy.