Wednesday, June 26, 2013

#26 30 Day Writing Challenge- Things I like and Dislike About Myself

I want to start off by saying that people shouldn't be afraid to dislike things about themselves. So many times people tell other people to just focus on the positive.

Something I have learned is that if you always focus on the positive, change doesn't happen. This goes for life, mostly. If you are focusing on the positive things in your life that are going right for you, that is great, optimism is great! But change needs to happen. Change usually comes with improvement from negative things in your life.

So the negative things about yourself won't change unless you focus on them.

There's just some food for thought for all optimists out there.


Anyways. List time!


Things I like about myself:
- I like that I am somewhat funny and have a good sense of humor, in my opinion
- I like my hair
- I like my eyes
- I like that I have an array of subjects I love to learn and think about
- I like that I can rely on myself for 99% of the things I need to do
- I like that I am always sure of myself
- I like that I am intelligent (cocky, but who cares?)
- I like my style
- I like that I can be both kind and cold to people
- I like that I love to learn
- I like that I have muscles
- I like that I like to run
- I like that I am determined
- I like that once I feel confident in my skin that I can be crazy and weird
- I like that I can be a hard-ass without emotion, yet also the most emotional person ever
- I like that I can be creative
- I like that I am driven and ambitious


Things I don't like about myself:
- I don't like that I am terrible with money
- I don't like that I am quiet
- I don't like my bra size
- I don't like my skin tone
- I don't like my acne/breakouts
- I don't like that I have trouble opening up with my favourite people
- I don't like how messy I can get
- I don't like how stressed out I can get
- I don't like that my confidence isn't as high as I want it to be
- I don't like how much time I waste
- I don't like that I can't sing well
- I don't like that I don't read often
- I don't like that when I really want something, although I get extremely determined to get it, I let reality get in the way and stop me

Weird Category- Things that I Love/Hate about myself:
- That I can be awkward, it can be funny at times, but other times it's just embarrassing
- That I watch a lot of TV, it takes away a bit of time, but I love it so much
- That I put pressure on myself, it can be stressful yet also can drive me to do well



On a separate note, I realized something the other day. People constantly think I am a "perfectionist" and I know I am not. What I did realize is that I have a fear of not being successful, which is why I think people think I am a perfectionist. I am not a perfectionist because I realize perfection is impossible. I knew I only needed a 75% on my law exam to get a 90% in the course (having a 94% going into the exam). I studied for a total of 2 hours... MAYBE the day before. I got an 87% on the exam, but I mostly bullshitted it. I am not a perfectionist. I do want to be successful though. The thought of not being successful, especially career-wise, scares me a little.

I guess that is another aspect I both love and hate about myself, because it stresses me out, but it also pushes me to try harder to reach my goals. 

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