Updates.

Just a few things. Well actually a lot of things. But I am going to summarize them. I have an announcement, and a few more life realizations. 

1. This is my official announcement: I am writing a book. I have attempted to write several books before, usually fiction. But this time it is different. It is kind of like an over-exaggerated biography of myself. Sort-of. I am just in the beginning process. One time I wrote a book, but I never finished it. I wrote like 60ish pages too. I just hated it, and scrapped it. Another time I started and I probably got to 20 pages, and then I just stopped. I think I will finish this one. I am probably only around 10 pages. It will take me a while. But I want to finish it. If it seems good enough, I honestly might consider looking for publishing companies.

2. The first realization I made was that I am not smart. I am not intelligent, witty, quick witted, a genius, whatever word you want to use, I am not that. I guess I have always sort of cared about my grades, but I kind of created a delusion that I actually try hard. The truth is: I don't try hard, whatsoever. It is really rare that I try REALLY HARD on an assignment, or studying. I used to say to myself "I try my hardest, and that's all I can do". But I really don't. If I try my hardest, I go crazy.

I guess that has nothing to do with being smart. But I was thinking to myself "Why do people think I am smart?". I just come off as smart, I think. Like I seem smart to others. Like that quiet innocent smart kid. Which I am not really smart. I have unique and different ideas, but I am still not smart.

I guess when I think of "smart" I think of someone well rounded with intelligent thoughts on a variety of subjects. That is not me.

Someone smart, makes smart choices. That is still not me.

I don't know what I am, I am not unintelligent, I am not average, I am not intelligent. I am just me.

3. I am not sure how I want to go about stating this. But I have been thinking about the negative stigma associated with people that workout/athletes. Not just that, but people's attitudes towards a healthy lifestyle.

I actually do not get it, at all. It is the EASIEST THING. Okay, that is a lie. But I think that having a healthy lifestyle is important.

I do not mean, be skinny. I mean, go for a run, eat an apple, and go to the gym. Be happy. 

I guess it is none of my business why some people do not workout, or care about their bodies, but I just think that people should.

I think that some of the most determined individuals are those who have conquered obesity, naturally worked up to have a body-building figure, and individuals in general who maintain a healthy lifestyle.

I do not trust an individual who cannot at least try to do these things that are good for their body. 

As bad as this may sound: If there are two identical candidates running with similar things, and one has a healthy lifestyle, and the other is obese and isn't doing anything about it, I am going to pick the healthy lifestyle one, by a long shot. I understand some people simply cannot lose weight... but I know that there are average or above average people who maintain a healthy lifestyle and run and eat good foods. The way your body looks doesn't matter, it is what you do with your body and what you put inside your body.

I can't say that I am perfect. I eat unhealthy all of the time, but I know my limits. I'd say 70% of what I eat on a daily basis is healthy. I eat chocolate, I have sugar in my coffee, I eat too much peanut butter sometimes. But do you know what? I also workout a lot, to maintain my strength and cardiovascular endurance. 

I guess this brings me to my 2nd part of my athletic rant. The negative stigma towards bodybuilders and athletes.

Sometimes I will see things on facebook or wherever else that sort of puts average people on a pedestal, and says that bodybuilders are stupid. Excuse me? 

There is really no correlation with the intelligence of a bodybuilder/athlete/regular person/obese person, so I really am not going to argue much other than what I just did. 

But I will say this: People who are physically fit, and create body goals and achieve them are the most determined and hardest workers out there. If I am hiring a person for a job and I see "Bodybuilder" written under extracurricular, I am going to immediately know you are a hard worker and determined.

Sigh.

4. I am not a philanthropist. As a matter or fact: Philanthropists annoy the fuck out of me. I would've described myself as this from like grade 5-10. But now I am just like ew. I am sorry, but I do not want to participate in your good cause and volunteer for you or give you my money. Allow me to quote Ralph Waldo Emerson (literally my favourite human ever), from his essay "Self-Reliance" (which really is the best piece of literature EVER).

"do not tell me, as a good man did to-day, of my obligation to put all poor men in good situations. Are they my poor? I tell thee, thou foolish philanthropist, that I grudge the dollar, the dime, the cent, I give to such men as do not belong to me and to whom I do not belong. There is a class of persons to whom by all spiritual affinity I am bought and sold; for them I will go to prison, if need be; but your miscellaneous popular charities; the education at college of fools; the building of meeting-houses to the vain end to which many now stand; alms to sots; and the thousandfold Relief Societies; — though I confess with shame I sometimes succumb and give the dollar, it is a wicked dollar which by and by I shall have the manhood to withhold."

Ralphie just sums'er up for me, right there.

I should write a blog post about Emerson someday. He is the best person ever. Sort of. Yes.