Sleep lately has been horrible.
1) I can't fall asleep as fast as I am used to.
2) I wake up halfway through my sleep
3) I wake up too early-- or too late.
Not only that, but my dreams lately have been terrible.
I keep having variations of a re-occurring dream. This guy texts me, and I am really confused as too why, but he gets me happy and excited, and then I meet up with him. After this, this is when the dream differs. Sometimes we just hang out and have a good time, once I dreamt he raped me and another time I just dreamt that we... well.. erm, did it.
WHAT THE FUCK SUBCONSCIOUS!
I have always had weird dreams, and I guess this isn't weird, it's just fucking with my conscious self. I can't even look at this guy (we don't talk anymore anyways). But I WAS over him. Then these dreams started and I am like.. da fuck, no.
My dreams always affect my daily life. I know I have talked about this. But I know that one time, for example, I had a dream I had a dog in university, and that is all I actually wanted for the next 2 weeks.
Apparently your dreams are your inner needs/desires.
This really doesn't say much for me.
I dream about my teachers... a LOT. I haven't had a teacher dream in a week or so, but usually they happen very often. It might not even have to do with school, it might be a regular dream, except my teacher is with me, or I run into my teacher somewhere. Fuck.
I'm tired of getting these problems, with no solutions.
Whether psychological, or physical, I get problems that have no medical solution.
Example: My leg. My doctor couldn't diagnose me.
Example: My memory, again I was undiagnosed.
Example: My "depression", somewhat diagnosed, yet left untreated (for a couple of reasons), and also, "it" is not completely depression, but yet, not any other psychological disorder.
WHAT THE FUCK. Now I don't know what this is.
I give up doctors, I simply give up.
1) I can't fall asleep as fast as I am used to.
2) I wake up halfway through my sleep
3) I wake up too early-- or too late.
Not only that, but my dreams lately have been terrible.
I keep having variations of a re-occurring dream. This guy texts me, and I am really confused as too why, but he gets me happy and excited, and then I meet up with him. After this, this is when the dream differs. Sometimes we just hang out and have a good time, once I dreamt he raped me and another time I just dreamt that we... well.. erm, did it.
WHAT THE FUCK SUBCONSCIOUS!
I have always had weird dreams, and I guess this isn't weird, it's just fucking with my conscious self. I can't even look at this guy (we don't talk anymore anyways). But I WAS over him. Then these dreams started and I am like.. da fuck, no.
My dreams always affect my daily life. I know I have talked about this. But I know that one time, for example, I had a dream I had a dog in university, and that is all I actually wanted for the next 2 weeks.
Apparently your dreams are your inner needs/desires.
This really doesn't say much for me.
I dream about my teachers... a LOT. I haven't had a teacher dream in a week or so, but usually they happen very often. It might not even have to do with school, it might be a regular dream, except my teacher is with me, or I run into my teacher somewhere. Fuck.
I'm tired of getting these problems, with no solutions.
Whether psychological, or physical, I get problems that have no medical solution.
Example: My leg. My doctor couldn't diagnose me.
Example: My memory, again I was undiagnosed.
Example: My "depression", somewhat diagnosed, yet left untreated (for a couple of reasons), and also, "it" is not completely depression, but yet, not any other psychological disorder.
WHAT THE FUCK. Now I don't know what this is.
I give up doctors, I simply give up.
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