I was reading about Hesiod's 5 Ages of man in history, and so I am going to come up with the ages of Sarah.
Early Ages: 0-4
During this time I remember next to nothing.
Just past toddler: 4-6
In kindergarten I was pretty quiet, to my knowledge. During this time teachers thought I was stupid, and that I was going to be a "remedial" student. My handwriting was criticized. I won 3rd place in an art contest for drawing some ice cream. My mom had a stroke.
A Kid: 7-9
During this time I expanded my social surroundings. I was seen as a smart kid. Although, when my teacher told me to read a fiction book to her, I would read the first few pages perfect, then I would start making up stories based on the picture and get bored of reading the book. I was placed in the high reading group, and encouraged to read non-fiction so I would stop making up stories. I was assumed to be remedial at money counting, and then as soon as they started tutoring me by myself, they realized that I was actually smart. At late age 8, they tested my spelling in a group of all of the smartest kids at school, and they told me that I have the spelling ability of a grade 9 student, and I was in grade 3. I was still in lyndhurst here.
Struggles: 9-12
This time I moved to Belleville because my parents divorced. I was assumed to be depressed/suicidal (though I was not), and had a psychologist during the majority of this time. I had a little bit of issues making friends during this time. I hated wearing jeans during this time. I was bullied throughout ages 11-12 along with one of my friends. Even though we aren't, we were called lesbians. I later learned that the girls who bullied us, mostly bullied us because we didn't include them in our fun games that we made up, and we also did this because we didn't like them, because they were mean. I just went into destinations at the tail end of this age, and had no friends for a week. My father passed away a few months later, and counselling ended a few months after that.
Pre-Teen: Tail end of destinations- the end of 1st semester grade 10 (age 13-15)
During this time I was really trying to define myself. I made many of the friends that I still have today, during this time. I was in destinations and foundations here, and I considered myself smart. Inspired by my psychologist, I wanted to be a psychologist and became fascinated with psychology. I was extremely quiet during this time, and got more quiet as times continued. I got into MANY fights with my closest friends which brought me way the fuck down. I struggled a bit with minor eating disorders here, as well. I lost and gained 1 friend repeatedly during this time. During this time I watched a lot of shows meant for 12 year olds, like Hannah Montana and iCarly.
Gaining Confidence: 2nd Semester Grade 10-First Semester Grade 11: (15-16)
During this time, I developed myself. I had peer tutoring which allowed me to gain confidence. I was inspired by 3 amazing teachers during this time. Also during this time, I fell in love with 2 people, whom of which I never dated. I still loved psychology here, but started broadening my horizons and liking other things as well, like politics, history, sociology and education. I think during this time I started developing symptoms of a psychological disorder I am not naming.
Now: 2nd Semester Grade 11- Present (16-17)
I am placed with a lot of responsibility during this time. I feel extremely stressed a lot. I am inspired by another teacher, even more. I fall out of love. I have lost many of my friends, figuratively, by this time. I have made a few new friends, that didn't last long, or at least are not close, now. I discovered I no longer want to pursue psychology, and I learn that I love philosophy. I develop a lot of my "moral" erm,... "immoral" values more. I have analyzed and over analyzed EVERYTHING. I began having mental breakdowns all over the place, caused by stress, usually over school. I started liking the most normal person I have ever liked, and began a relationship with said person and then right when it was getting good, it ended. I then fell back on the person I used to love, and then tried talking to that person again, but I just hated it.
And that ladies in gentlemen, at the 7 ages of Sarah.
Early Ages: 0-4
During this time I remember next to nothing.
Just past toddler: 4-6
In kindergarten I was pretty quiet, to my knowledge. During this time teachers thought I was stupid, and that I was going to be a "remedial" student. My handwriting was criticized. I won 3rd place in an art contest for drawing some ice cream. My mom had a stroke.
A Kid: 7-9
During this time I expanded my social surroundings. I was seen as a smart kid. Although, when my teacher told me to read a fiction book to her, I would read the first few pages perfect, then I would start making up stories based on the picture and get bored of reading the book. I was placed in the high reading group, and encouraged to read non-fiction so I would stop making up stories. I was assumed to be remedial at money counting, and then as soon as they started tutoring me by myself, they realized that I was actually smart. At late age 8, they tested my spelling in a group of all of the smartest kids at school, and they told me that I have the spelling ability of a grade 9 student, and I was in grade 3. I was still in lyndhurst here.
Struggles: 9-12
This time I moved to Belleville because my parents divorced. I was assumed to be depressed/suicidal (though I was not), and had a psychologist during the majority of this time. I had a little bit of issues making friends during this time. I hated wearing jeans during this time. I was bullied throughout ages 11-12 along with one of my friends. Even though we aren't, we were called lesbians. I later learned that the girls who bullied us, mostly bullied us because we didn't include them in our fun games that we made up, and we also did this because we didn't like them, because they were mean. I just went into destinations at the tail end of this age, and had no friends for a week. My father passed away a few months later, and counselling ended a few months after that.
Pre-Teen: Tail end of destinations- the end of 1st semester grade 10 (age 13-15)
During this time I was really trying to define myself. I made many of the friends that I still have today, during this time. I was in destinations and foundations here, and I considered myself smart. Inspired by my psychologist, I wanted to be a psychologist and became fascinated with psychology. I was extremely quiet during this time, and got more quiet as times continued. I got into MANY fights with my closest friends which brought me way the fuck down. I struggled a bit with minor eating disorders here, as well. I lost and gained 1 friend repeatedly during this time. During this time I watched a lot of shows meant for 12 year olds, like Hannah Montana and iCarly.
Gaining Confidence: 2nd Semester Grade 10-First Semester Grade 11: (15-16)
During this time, I developed myself. I had peer tutoring which allowed me to gain confidence. I was inspired by 3 amazing teachers during this time. Also during this time, I fell in love with 2 people, whom of which I never dated. I still loved psychology here, but started broadening my horizons and liking other things as well, like politics, history, sociology and education. I think during this time I started developing symptoms of a psychological disorder I am not naming.
Now: 2nd Semester Grade 11- Present (16-17)
I am placed with a lot of responsibility during this time. I feel extremely stressed a lot. I am inspired by another teacher, even more. I fall out of love. I have lost many of my friends, figuratively, by this time. I have made a few new friends, that didn't last long, or at least are not close, now. I discovered I no longer want to pursue psychology, and I learn that I love philosophy. I develop a lot of my "moral" erm,... "immoral" values more. I have analyzed and over analyzed EVERYTHING. I began having mental breakdowns all over the place, caused by stress, usually over school. I started liking the most normal person I have ever liked, and began a relationship with said person and then right when it was getting good, it ended. I then fell back on the person I used to love, and then tried talking to that person again, but I just hated it.
And that ladies in gentlemen, at the 7 ages of Sarah.
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