It is scary.

Have you ever just wanted something so bad that you would be willing to risk everything for that thing/that person?

I have always said this to myself. "I would do anything". Anything. To get this thing. This... person. Literally... anything.

I feel like some form of evil mastermind.

But I realized... that for me "I would do anything" is not just a saying. It is in fact, true. I would do anything. As a matter or fact, I figured out what I have to do, to get this thing/person.

It will take a while. It won't happen for over a year. But I guess that time will give me time. But I know exactly what I will do. I know this is all so general. But I just have these really strong emotions right now.

It will happen.

Whether it is successful, or it fails... at least I won't die knowing that I never had this thing.

I will risk everything just for 5 seconds.

This is all too crazy.

But who cares.

Okay. Let me just talk about Freud for a moment. You have all heard of Freud's theory with the Id, superego and ego? If not, basically it states that the mind is made up of these three parts, the Id is what you want, the ego is sort of the transition part that helps you get it, and helps you act on it, and think about it, and the superego is what says "No, you can't have this" and thinks about things logically.

Well I basically realized this entire theory is completely bogus if you eliminate society's restrictions. I don't think the mind itself has restrictions other than those implemented by society, so without society, you would have no need for a superego.

So although I am aware of what my superego wants me to do, fuck it. I have a large Id. Who cares?

So. Yeah. That is that. I am happy. And ALSO TINA FEY FUCKING ANSWERED MY QUESTION IN A VIDEO. If you know me go find it on my twitter or facebook. I'm too lazy to fetch the link right now. (I am such a good blogger).

Lastly, I am super bored so I am going to do this thing (like a note) I saw on facebook.

*GIRL CONFESSIONS*
1. Do you sleep with the lights on or off ? off
2. White or milk chocolate ? milk! or dark ;)
3. Small or large purses ? LARGE.
4. Favourite colour? purple

5. Are you short? kind of. more average. But maybe a little bit shorter than average.

*BE HONEST*
1. Room colour ? beige.
2. Light or dark haired guys ? I prefer dark, but it honestly doesn't matter.
3. Are you currently frustrated with a guy ? nope!
4. Do you have a best friend? not a "Best" friend.
6. Have you ever jumped in a pool with your clothes on? I don't think so
7. Do you have more guy or girl friends? Its almost even... but I think girls.
8. How long have you had Facebook ? grade 8ish
9. Have you ever slapped a guy in the face? yes.
10. What is your biggest fear? spiders. being trapped in small spaces. so if you trap me in a small space with spiders, I am not even kidding you, I will either die, or at least pass out. I will be forever psychologically damaged. I am actually dead serious about this.
11. What's the craziest outfit you ever wore ? HAHAHAHA. Naked. I mean, my body is pretty crazy.
12. Funniest thing that's ever happened to you ? Life.

*GIRL STUFF*
1. Mascara or eyeliner ? ew neither
2. Pink or black ? BLACK
3. Heels or flats ? heels
4. Skirts or pants ? both? :)
5. Hoodies or jackets ? neither?
6. Wedges or sneakers ? both.. but wedges
7. Straight or curly hair ? straight
8. Smoothies or lattes ? both!! OMG this is hard. twss.
9. Diet or regular soda? NEITHER. Ew soda is gross
10. Pearls or diamonds ? diamonds
11. iPod or phone? iPhone? ;)

*IN A GUY*
1. Funny or serious? both. more serious. but both.
2. Romantic or serious? more serious, but both. ;)
3. Dark or light eyes? DARK BLUE. or really any other colour. dark brown. like not quite so you can't see the pupil, but darkkk.
4. Tall or short? extremely tall. like 9'10''. Jk. But tall.
5. What do you like most In a guy ? comfort.
6. What does a guy have to do to get your attention? Say Hi.