I hate you.

That one person.

That one person that you feel like no matter what... you will love forever. 

You think that even on your wedding day, if not with this person, that they will be all you think of the whole time.

That person... I have one. I have since November 2011. Almost 1 year. Basically one year. I am not exactly sure when.

But for whatever reason, you are not with this person, either because of weird reasons, or just simply... you can't be.

Even though there are all of these reasons to not have this person, you still like them, even though your emotions for them sometimes take a backseat, or you feel them more intensely at times.

But they will remain there. Or at least, in memory.

But you also hate this person. You hate them... because you can't have them. They cannot be yours.

Anyways...

Marriage is just like a general guideline right? Its not like a lifelong commitment. I have nothing to lose.

Except...

everything.

But. It is worth it.

It will be worth it.

I know it.