I don't even know what is happening in my life anymore. Things are changing so fast and my brain is moving so fast that I am not even sure what the hell is up and down.

It's driving me insane. I can't focus on anything without my mind wandering off. It's actually terrible.

I just want to smash my head repeatedly off of my desk. It drives me nuts!!!

EVERYTHING is changing ALWAYS. WHY?!

School...
Family...
Friends...
Me...
Money...
EVERY FUCKING THING.

STOP. Just... STOP for just ONE WHOLE MINUTE. My mind is trying to do 50 things at once and I am about to throw a fit. I am going to have a crying screaming fit.

I don't think people can actually easily understand what I am going through. I have too much to do, and I can't focus on it. I sit down to work on an assignment, and I drive myself nuts. I've even had 2 assignments in my entire life that I was borderline suicide about. I know that is not normal. But I really just can't stand it. I can't just tell my teachers to stop though.