RAMBLES.

LIFE.

Is so.. lifey.

God.

I am like the most awkward and embarrassing human to ever roam the earth. I am not even kidding you. I do the dumbest things that are so embarrassing.

I've been thinking a lot lately about Society vs the Individual. Mostly because of my english essay. But also because I can. (I obviously think of normal things). 

I think that society should accept everyone as who they are and that people shouldn't have to conform to society.

If you get what I mean.

But I feel that many people don't have a problem with just accepting everyone? Right? Yeah, right! Like, many LBGTQ people are accepted now, and people of all races, relgion, sexes. Right? For the most part, yes.

But that is not my focus. It is the actual individual's thoughts that should be accepted.

I think of weird things, and I like weird things. I don't need people's approval, but life would be a whole lot easier if I could just say the things on my mind and not be feared of being judged, ignored.. or even arrested.

This is why I find law and society unfair. I just can't exist the way I want to. Society expects ME to change to be a member of it. Well... I usually say "If you can't beat em' join em'". Which is what I want to do. Sort of. I will never forget my goal...

But I will never stop until society has changed... even just a little, in my favour. You may be like "Well that is what YOU Think". Well yes, it is. But it includes ALL members of society. So you think about that one.

CAREER UPDATE.

Weird update title? Maybe.

I still want to become a psychologist. Of course I do.

But I think I want to be a High School teacher too. You know how I am so obsessed with teachers and such. I am always analyzing them. Teaching fascinates me. I don't know why. I mean, who does a freaking project on quote "How do student-teacher relationships affect the academic, emotional and social success in students?". I am like obsessed with the thought of working in a highschool.

But there were 4 reasons why I thought I didn't want to be a teacher:

1) I don't actually want to stand in front of people and actually do the act of teaching. Recently I discovered I LOVE teaching people my ideas, and others ideas. I love it SO much. So this has obviously changed.

2) It doesn't earn as much as a psychologist. A psychologist can earn upwards of 100,000 per year. Teachers earn something like 60,000 ( I THINK.) So. That sucks.

3) I don't want to mark. Easy solution: Don't create assignments that are a pain in the ass to mark.

4) Its hard to get teaching jobs nowadays. That might change if and once I do become a teacher. And besides--- I will be the best freaking teacher in the world..

So heres my point: I want to be a teacher. I want to be a psychologist. I will do both. 

I want to ask someone in guidance about how I could go about doing this. Because I want to have both things achieved before I am 30. But here is what I am thinking.

Go to University and Double major in Psychology and... either Philosophy, Sociology or history (probably going to be sociology).

In 4 years achieve my 2 Bachelors.

NOW HERES THE ISSUE. Here is where I would go for my Masters in Psychology or go to Teachers College.

What I want to know, is if I can do both at the same time. Like CAN you do a masters while in teachers college? You might. But it might be a bit of a stretch. 

If you can't--- here is where my issue comes up. Thinking realistically--- if I can't do both at the same time, going to teachers college first would make sense. It is faster, then I can get a job, at least supplying, and once I am out of teachers college THEN I can start working on my masters, then my PhD. 

But I want to do both. I don't even freaking care. 

The other thing I am considering is working for a school board. I think it would be interesting.

But I am not even 100% sure what I am doing. I don't need to know for a while, because if I just double major in 2 subjects than it will be easy to transition to either teachers college OR my masters in psych. I just need to know THEN. 

But I want to know now.

Some people may be like "Well why don't you be a school psychologist!". Okay. Sure. But I still can't teach.

I want to make lesson plans and do class activities and change their lives. Inspire them. I feel like I have soo many ideas of teaching that I just want to shove down some future teenager's lives.

But still, if I could only do one profession... it'd probably be a Psychologist still...

Just another quickie. FACT. TWSS. Okay. So. Before I am out of uni... I want to be a personal trainer. Goodlife has this program and everything. So you don't need like college education or anything. But I think it'd be so awesome! 

Life Advice: Admit to yourself what you are afraid to and you will find inner joy and happiness.