No Regrets.

I want to have no regrets.

I have been thinking lately, about everything I regret doing... rather, NOT doing in high school. Its passing by so fucking fast.

I regret not doing soooo many things in Grade 9/10. But this year, and next year, I will try my hardest to do them.

I've been moping around a bit about NOT doing things in grade 9 and 10, but the truth is--- the past is the past. I can't change that. So no matter how much I mope around about it, it won't change.

I'm going to take a chance. or 100. This year and next year. I have sooo many things to look forward to as of late.

I just need to take more opportunities. What is the worst that can happen? I've been living in fear for too long. Not much bad can come from trying to be a better me.

In Grade 9, I was sort of quiet. I just wanted to stay out of things. I guess grade 9 was the year of "hanging out" and continuous extreme innocence. I kept to myself. Didn't try too hard in my classes. Chilled with friends a lot. Got a job. Started volunteering at KHP. I became concerned about my body.

In Grade 10, I joined and started nothing new. This was a year of self-discovery though, unlike grade 9. Peer tutoring actually changed me so much. I kind of regret taking Triology in Grade 10, but it happened for a reason, because I got to take family studies this year. In grade 10 a lot of change in friends happened, considering Kasi and Gytha moved away and switched to centennial. More of my independance developed here. In grade 9 I would practically cry when my friends were all away from school. Peer tutoring helped me with this.

So far in Grade 11, I have gotten my G1, got a second job, joined the gym, joined GSA. Its a pretty good year. But its not good enough. Not yet. I need to do one more thing before its over. I THINK I know what it is. But it may not happen, so I will not say what it is. In grade 11 I have become completely independent. This is my risk-taking year. I took fashion risks, social risks, physical risks. So many risks. I haven't died yet. Sounds good. Its also the year of rebelling. I have rebeled from my mom a lot. I have cleansed my life this year. This is get serious time for me. I have established more of my person. Family studies really changed me, too. I feel I have gained so much knowledge.

Grade 12--- will be unspeakable. I swear--- something amazing will happen here. Maybe it will be the year of ACTUALLY GETTING A GODDAM FUCKING BOYFRIEND. Or the year of athleticism. Or the year of academics. Year of arts? Who knows. But whatever it will be- it will be fucking amazing.

I just don't want to regret doing ANYTHING ever again in highschool. But its more like what I haven't done.

I need to do more.

This summer I am planning on taking so many risks and doing so many things. Mostly athletic-wise. But still. I am going to socialize myself into myself. That would make sense if you took triology. Or sarahology..

Maybe someday I will speak the truth---

Life Advice- Seize the day