I get in these moods frequently where I am extremely excited for life.
I am just like oh my god there are so many things and people and places and I just want to see everything and do everything.
I feel like I am not alone in this, but I feel that I get extremely extreme (yes I just used extremely as an adverb to describe extreme) about it.
I know that I tend to be sort of anti-money anti-job, and I think that people shouldn't have to work for money. But then in another way, I know that if I want to stay in this society that I need to accept some aspects of it.
I talk about this a lot too, the fact that society is stupid and yet I am still in it. I guess that is the sort of "fight or flight" response I have. Fight would be to either stay in society and fight from within or get out of society and fight externally. Flight would either be to just run away from society or to ignore its' problems.
There are things I want to do in society, nevertheless. As I've stated I want to get into politics and education.
I want to be a teacher so badly that its almost insane. Almost, well it is.
But lately I've been thinking about government again. I don't want to go into federal government, at all. I always said I wouldn't mind running to become a MPP and work in provincial government. But now I am starting to lean more towards municipal government. Doing small things within the community. Getting involved. I think that I am interested in municipal government for 2 reasons. The first being that I watch "Parks and Recreation" on NBC, and I think it looks fun (even though I know it is nothing like that) and the second is that I work at a library, so I see a lot of what municipal government is really about. I don't care if I am a part of city council or a mayor, but I wouldn't mind finding something to do in municipal government. I think it would be fun, and that I can make a difference.
There's the other thing I am hypocritical about-- "making a difference". I believe I have clarified in a past blog that I hate philanthropy. I do. I don't think that people should be expected to be philanthropic. I don't think it is necessary. I don't consider myself a philanthropist. I don't even consider anything I do to be "helping". But in peer tutoring- of course I am helping all of the time! But I almost feel like I am doing it more for me than for the students. I like to do it. I don't know. I'm just being weird again, but that's okay.
Back to my point-- I am excited for life. I want to learn so much in university, I want to move out. I want to earn money and have a child and a family. Although I know it isn't necessary, they are things I want. As someone who hates society, I seem to pretty much want a normal life. I think that it is a natural instinct to want a family though. I don't know.
I am just super excited. That is all.
ARE YOU EXCITED?
I am just like oh my god there are so many things and people and places and I just want to see everything and do everything.
I feel like I am not alone in this, but I feel that I get extremely extreme (yes I just used extremely as an adverb to describe extreme) about it.
I know that I tend to be sort of anti-money anti-job, and I think that people shouldn't have to work for money. But then in another way, I know that if I want to stay in this society that I need to accept some aspects of it.
I talk about this a lot too, the fact that society is stupid and yet I am still in it. I guess that is the sort of "fight or flight" response I have. Fight would be to either stay in society and fight from within or get out of society and fight externally. Flight would either be to just run away from society or to ignore its' problems.
There are things I want to do in society, nevertheless. As I've stated I want to get into politics and education.
I want to be a teacher so badly that its almost insane. Almost, well it is.
But lately I've been thinking about government again. I don't want to go into federal government, at all. I always said I wouldn't mind running to become a MPP and work in provincial government. But now I am starting to lean more towards municipal government. Doing small things within the community. Getting involved. I think that I am interested in municipal government for 2 reasons. The first being that I watch "Parks and Recreation" on NBC, and I think it looks fun (even though I know it is nothing like that) and the second is that I work at a library, so I see a lot of what municipal government is really about. I don't care if I am a part of city council or a mayor, but I wouldn't mind finding something to do in municipal government. I think it would be fun, and that I can make a difference.
There's the other thing I am hypocritical about-- "making a difference". I believe I have clarified in a past blog that I hate philanthropy. I do. I don't think that people should be expected to be philanthropic. I don't think it is necessary. I don't consider myself a philanthropist. I don't even consider anything I do to be "helping". But in peer tutoring- of course I am helping all of the time! But I almost feel like I am doing it more for me than for the students. I like to do it. I don't know. I'm just being weird again, but that's okay.
Back to my point-- I am excited for life. I want to learn so much in university, I want to move out. I want to earn money and have a child and a family. Although I know it isn't necessary, they are things I want. As someone who hates society, I seem to pretty much want a normal life. I think that it is a natural instinct to want a family though. I don't know.
I am just super excited. That is all.
ARE YOU EXCITED?
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