Wednesday, December 19, 2012

What if...

I always ask myself What if questions. I feel like I already wrote a blog about this topic, but I just thought of something else to write about.

What if I had my own TV show?
As a kid I used to pretend I had a talk show or a "how to" show like "Zoom" (If you don't remember that you didn't have a childhood". Anyways, as I grew older I still imagined myself with my own TV show. I started watching shows like Oprah and Ellen, and I again, wanted my own TV show. Like a talk show. Briefly during the time I wanted to be a psychologist, I thought of pulling a Dr. Phil.

I don't always think of wanting a TV show. But I was thinking about it again recently. Wouldn't it be so cool if I did have my own TV show? What would it be like? What would I talk about?

If I could have my own TV show, I would be the happiest human ever. I think the last time I explored this want was in grade 9, or whenever the "OWN" network launched. Oprah had this show that was like a reality game show where there would be a winner that got their own tv show. I used to want a teen empowering show, then.

Now I am thinking again. It would honestly be some philosophical/current issues type show. It would be like intense analyzations of society. I feel like some people would like that.

Discuss moral issues in society, talk about current issues in relation to past historical events and relate that to some psychological concept.

I think it would be amazing.

A few times I thought of starting up my youtube videos again. I recently uploaded a quick iPhone video about Bill 115, but that's still not what I'm going for. I think once I turn 18, and I am in university I might try it again. Sure, I can do youtube whenever I want, but once I am older I can do more videos and at 18 I can actually earn money off of youtube (if my videos become popular).

I think that would be pretty cool.

I don't know. I've just been thinking of things I can do with my life and ways I can express my opinions. I could write a book, try to make my blog bigger (which I barely put any thought into my blog posts anyways), try to make a documentary, have a TV show, make youtube videos.

I've always sort of hoped I get involved in some huge political or societal issue in the news and that I go viral. I know that's a weird hope, but I think it would be cool. Go viral for being a teenager that actually uses their brain.

I don't know. I want to get into politics again, a bit.

All I know, is that I do not want to work for someone else when I am older. If I am a teacher I have to, if I am a professor I have to. So I might do something along the lines of that.

I have these weird fantasies I wish would come alive (in a non-sexual way). Like if I became REALLY rich (Somehow), I would open up my own school.

It would have no credentials or marking. Everything on the honour system. Tuition is free. Everyone is considered, grades don't matter. You live in dorms that are free as well. Of course, there is limited admission. But admission would be based off of how good your essay/interview is.
To get in you would have to show ambition, or even no ambition. You'd have to be interesting. Stand out. Have an idea. No I do not mean an idea like "What if we all hold hands and become equal". Something outstanding, fascinating. In the school, it would be more like our own exclusive society. You learn different things, write books, read books, have constant discussion. It would be like an agora in greek society, with socrates just chilling around.

I don't know.

I'm kind of crazy.

But... seriously. What if?

I think everything is possible. Maybe these things will happen.
I keep finding myself saying "be logical" and "be practical" to myself. But for some reason it's just not working.

Diaries of a crazy practical girl? Naw.

In other news, I found a boy that likes me. We are in a weird phase of our "relationship". We aren't together officially. But I wouldn't doubt that we won't. I just think we are in the phase in which you get to know each other still. But he thinks I'm smart and crazy. And egotistical. I'm not sure how "real" I can get with him. But I guess that doesn't really matter. He's smart and funny and cute and isn't that everything that a stereotypical girl wants? Sure.

You gotta love the way my brain works.
He's 2 years younger? So what.
He's had way more girlfriends than you? So what.
He drinks and parties occasionally? So what.
He's a christian? Gah... okay... if I have to...FFUUUUUU

Anyways, I better go work on my exercise science culminating that is due... tomorrow.
And study for my history test/quiz which is... tomorrow.

Thank god the last exercise science test of the class was today. Just the exam. Yikes.

Also, I am extremely excited for university and Nipissing still looks very promising. I want to tour Trent, Lakehead, Carleton and York during march break, maybe. If I haven't accepted my offer before then. I've sort of already toured Trent. But Carleton has been seeming promising too...
Hmm.

BYE I NEED TO SCHOOL NOW!!!

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