I keep thinking that I only get bouts of depression. It's only sometimes.
But really, it happens when...:
I can't handle stress
I talk to my mom
I am near my mom
I have too many assignments
I can't deal with life
So essentially, it happens a lot.
I need out of my house more than anything. I can't stand being yelled at for things I didn't do. Yes, I moved a piece of my furniture into the hall to be moved into the basement, you were fine with this (it only took you 3 GOD DAMNED FUCKING YEARS!). Then next thing you know, I take you back home for an hour during your lunch break, and you start screaming at ME because YOU are moving around YOUR room to make room for my piece of furniture, which you decide you want in your room.
Why are you blaming me?
You are the one moving the piece of furniture.
You are the one who chose to move it during your lunch break.
I did nothing. You made those choices.
This is one thing that drives me nuts about people. They literally do not understand that ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!!!
You say "I have to go work".
No, no you don't. The correct response would be "I want money, so I need to go to work so I don't get fired from my job. I could take a day off, but it would risk getting fired. So if I compare these pros and cons, I guess I will deal with the stresses of my worklife, just for the paycheque".
You do not HAVE TO DO ANYTHING!
Sure, society says so. But who says you have to follow society?
It drives me nuts how people don't question their surroundings and why they are doing things. Society is just like this assembly line. Who said you have to sleep at night and be awake in the day? Maybe your parents as a kid. But do you have to? No. You do not have to do anything.
I just find it hard to not live within society. I am physically inside this society, so I try to keep up. But it is honestly just driving me straight into depression. I can't take people's stupidity. I need to teach people that they do not have to live the life they are living.
Shit I just took up 15 minutes of my study time writing this. Fuck it.
But really, it happens when...:
I can't handle stress
I talk to my mom
I am near my mom
I have too many assignments
I can't deal with life
So essentially, it happens a lot.
I need out of my house more than anything. I can't stand being yelled at for things I didn't do. Yes, I moved a piece of my furniture into the hall to be moved into the basement, you were fine with this (it only took you 3 GOD DAMNED FUCKING YEARS!). Then next thing you know, I take you back home for an hour during your lunch break, and you start screaming at ME because YOU are moving around YOUR room to make room for my piece of furniture, which you decide you want in your room.
Why are you blaming me?
You are the one moving the piece of furniture.
You are the one who chose to move it during your lunch break.
I did nothing. You made those choices.
This is one thing that drives me nuts about people. They literally do not understand that ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!!!
You say "I have to go work".
No, no you don't. The correct response would be "I want money, so I need to go to work so I don't get fired from my job. I could take a day off, but it would risk getting fired. So if I compare these pros and cons, I guess I will deal with the stresses of my worklife, just for the paycheque".
You do not HAVE TO DO ANYTHING!
Sure, society says so. But who says you have to follow society?
It drives me nuts how people don't question their surroundings and why they are doing things. Society is just like this assembly line. Who said you have to sleep at night and be awake in the day? Maybe your parents as a kid. But do you have to? No. You do not have to do anything.
I just find it hard to not live within society. I am physically inside this society, so I try to keep up. But it is honestly just driving me straight into depression. I can't take people's stupidity. I need to teach people that they do not have to live the life they are living.
Shit I just took up 15 minutes of my study time writing this. Fuck it.
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