Somedays I love life and others I just want to die.
Some people may call this bipolar disorder.
Or just an attention grab.
But I call it life.
Sometimes I am extremely motivated to do anything, and sometimes I just want to lay in bed all day.
But you know what? I think I am going to have to live with this.
This constant inability to focus for more than 30 minutes.
My weird demands for getting shit done.
I just... I don't even know.
When I do homework/assignments at home I need to move every so often. Sometimes I need to lay on the floor or have my feet raised above my head, just to focus better. I'm not sure that it always works. But sometimes just for 5 minutes.
At school I am better. If a teacher is watching me I will probably focus better. Depending on the teacher. Sometimes I'll just like study the teacher, watching what they do. "Oh there goes _______ writing down the lesson plan. Now _______ is reading a book." Like who does that?
I do that a lot. I can't focus.
I have a test/quiz friday, an essay due friday, I have to re-write my exercise science test for bonus marks...
Theres the other thing. Tests. I can't remember anything. It is driving me NUTS!
Oh, in my last blog I complained about my english teacher a lot. She still drives me nuts, but I had a conversation with her the other day that made me feel differently. We were just talking about an assignment, but I just really feel I need to change her perspective of me.
I've kind of messed up a few things with 2 of my teachers this year. Like really dumb things. Like my english teacher I submitted this really questionable short story. It was the one I posted on here, except I basically added in a sex scene. Not quite, but you can catch my drift.
The other teacher, at the beginning of the year, you know how they have those pieces of paper you fill out with contact info and sometimes some other questions? Well the one question was "Future career?" and I answered "Not striving for a career".
It's actually kind of funny, because every so often this teacher will lean over to me and try to get me EXTREMELY interested in some topic. I express a little bit of interest in something and she's all like "DO THAT!!". Today she was talking about interesting jobs she never heard of and she was like "And a physiotherapist! You could do that!" and she looked at me.
I'm like oh god.
But the truth is, okay, I am not striving for a career, but I am going to get one. I decided I have to go along with society if I want to live here. But I am going to do many things. Here is a list of things I WANT to do. And its not like I am picking one, I plan on doing all of them:
- Highschool teacher
- Author
- Politician
- University Professor
In other news, I have a history presentation next week, and I am really looking forward to it. That is something that has REALLY changed about me. I love doing presentations. I love talking and having people listen to me. I don't necessarily volunteer to go first, but I love doing them. I am not good at them either. But I am still extremely excited. I loved doing my Family studies, law and history ones last year! Now I am just like wheeeeeee!
I have to do a soliloquy for english. I am not as excited over that, because it is shakespeare. But maybe I can prove myself to my english teacher again.
I realized that I have an insane amount of respect for my teachers. Their opinions of me mean A LOT. It's so weird.
Oh. Also, I have a guidance appointment tomorrow. I might switch into law, I might switch out of data management. I do want to change my semester 2. But I mainly made the appointment to complain about things to guidance. I mean... totally, it is to drop data management ;).
I have an intense headache right now.
Anyways I will tell you this:
I am going to finish my English Essay
I am also going to finish my Exercise Science test corrections.
Also, I am going to go to the gym tonight for 2 FULL hours (no skipping out sarah!!) and then shower, take a walk then sleep.
Time to STOP PROCRASTINATING AND FREAKING OUT SARAH!!!!
Okay. Well, that is it.
Oh, also I talk to the moon sometimes and that is pretty chill.
Some people may call this bipolar disorder.
Or just an attention grab.
But I call it life.
Sometimes I am extremely motivated to do anything, and sometimes I just want to lay in bed all day.
But you know what? I think I am going to have to live with this.
This constant inability to focus for more than 30 minutes.
My weird demands for getting shit done.
I just... I don't even know.
When I do homework/assignments at home I need to move every so often. Sometimes I need to lay on the floor or have my feet raised above my head, just to focus better. I'm not sure that it always works. But sometimes just for 5 minutes.
At school I am better. If a teacher is watching me I will probably focus better. Depending on the teacher. Sometimes I'll just like study the teacher, watching what they do. "Oh there goes _______ writing down the lesson plan. Now _______ is reading a book." Like who does that?
I do that a lot. I can't focus.
I have a test/quiz friday, an essay due friday, I have to re-write my exercise science test for bonus marks...
Theres the other thing. Tests. I can't remember anything. It is driving me NUTS!
Oh, in my last blog I complained about my english teacher a lot. She still drives me nuts, but I had a conversation with her the other day that made me feel differently. We were just talking about an assignment, but I just really feel I need to change her perspective of me.
I've kind of messed up a few things with 2 of my teachers this year. Like really dumb things. Like my english teacher I submitted this really questionable short story. It was the one I posted on here, except I basically added in a sex scene. Not quite, but you can catch my drift.
The other teacher, at the beginning of the year, you know how they have those pieces of paper you fill out with contact info and sometimes some other questions? Well the one question was "Future career?" and I answered "Not striving for a career".
It's actually kind of funny, because every so often this teacher will lean over to me and try to get me EXTREMELY interested in some topic. I express a little bit of interest in something and she's all like "DO THAT!!". Today she was talking about interesting jobs she never heard of and she was like "And a physiotherapist! You could do that!" and she looked at me.
I'm like oh god.
But the truth is, okay, I am not striving for a career, but I am going to get one. I decided I have to go along with society if I want to live here. But I am going to do many things. Here is a list of things I WANT to do. And its not like I am picking one, I plan on doing all of them:
- Highschool teacher
- Author
- Politician
- University Professor
In other news, I have a history presentation next week, and I am really looking forward to it. That is something that has REALLY changed about me. I love doing presentations. I love talking and having people listen to me. I don't necessarily volunteer to go first, but I love doing them. I am not good at them either. But I am still extremely excited. I loved doing my Family studies, law and history ones last year! Now I am just like wheeeeeee!
I have to do a soliloquy for english. I am not as excited over that, because it is shakespeare. But maybe I can prove myself to my english teacher again.
I realized that I have an insane amount of respect for my teachers. Their opinions of me mean A LOT. It's so weird.
Oh. Also, I have a guidance appointment tomorrow. I might switch into law, I might switch out of data management. I do want to change my semester 2. But I mainly made the appointment to complain about things to guidance. I mean... totally, it is to drop data management ;).
I have an intense headache right now.
Anyways I will tell you this:
I am going to finish my English Essay
I am also going to finish my Exercise Science test corrections.
Also, I am going to go to the gym tonight for 2 FULL hours (no skipping out sarah!!) and then shower, take a walk then sleep.
Time to STOP PROCRASTINATING AND FREAKING OUT SARAH!!!!
Okay. Well, that is it.
Oh, also I talk to the moon sometimes and that is pretty chill.
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