I don't want to admit that I am scared for next year. I really don't. Which is why I am not. I guess I did... but no. Nope. Of course not.
Moving out... is what I have wanted ever since grade 9!
Going into university... is what I have wanted ever since grade 7!
What? I guess its normal to feel nervous. I still have grade 12 ahead of me.
But I seriously need to talk to someone in guidance. I need a legit hour to sit down and talk about university shit. More like 10 hours.
I still don't know where I want to go.
I still don't know what I want to study.
I have the slightest idea, but I really have no clue because I'm trying to keep my options open.
I remember back in Grade 9/10. I basically "knew" it. Psychology to become a psychologist and going to Waterloo. Right. No idea why I chose waterloo in the first place. Its not even in my top 5 slightest ideas.
I am not staying for grade 13. There is no way. If I stay for Grade 13... I am moving out of the house.. at least. Maybe out of the city. I'll go to another high school. I'd rather do college for a year than go back to high school. High school has nothing more to offer me...
I forgot I was blogging. Awkward. I just found this page open. Well. I'll try to continue my train of thought.
I don't know. I just want the whole process to take 5 minutes. I don't have time to do all of this shit. I'm way too busy. I get about 2-3 hours a day to myself. I guess that is good... except I take them out of my sleep time. Usually my day goes something like this now:
Wake up sometime between 6am-6:45am
Get ready for school Until about 7:20am ish
Eat breakfast + go on the computer until 7:40ish
Get dressed for school
Go to school for 8:10ish.
School until 2:30
Either go to the gym right after, have cross country right after, or have work right after.
If I have work right after, it is until 7pm. Otherwise it is until either 4pm-6pm.
If I don't have work, I take a shower and then do homework and then have about 3hours of whatever time.
If I do have work I go to the gym afterwards until about 9-10pm (depending) and then get home and shower by 11pm. Then I usually go straight to bed. There isn't time for homework, but at my job I am allowed to do homework (which is awesome).
Like come on life. Really? Really? I know I need to stop. I am stressing myself out... its only the first week back.
But I just can't. Its an addiction. I think an alcohol addiction isn't as bad as this. Okay I take that back. My Dad was an alcoholic, and that was worse than any of this.
But still. I just can't wait to move out and start learning subjects I ENJOY.
Right now I am planning on doing a combination or some of these things:
BA in Philosophy, possibly later a Masters or PhD
BA in Sociology
BA in Political Science
BEd (Bachelor of Education) and possibly a Masters or PhD in Education
BA in Psychology
So that is where that stands.
Schools I am currently (somewhat interested in) (In Somewhat of an order)
Lakehead
Trent
Carleton
Brock
Guelph
Guhhaaaahh. Gahwwwhw. Ffasjdfhkawe. Fahiwuehca. Fudge.
Goodbye
Moving out... is what I have wanted ever since grade 9!
Going into university... is what I have wanted ever since grade 7!
What? I guess its normal to feel nervous. I still have grade 12 ahead of me.
But I seriously need to talk to someone in guidance. I need a legit hour to sit down and talk about university shit. More like 10 hours.
I still don't know where I want to go.
I still don't know what I want to study.
I have the slightest idea, but I really have no clue because I'm trying to keep my options open.
I remember back in Grade 9/10. I basically "knew" it. Psychology to become a psychologist and going to Waterloo. Right. No idea why I chose waterloo in the first place. Its not even in my top 5 slightest ideas.
I am not staying for grade 13. There is no way. If I stay for Grade 13... I am moving out of the house.. at least. Maybe out of the city. I'll go to another high school. I'd rather do college for a year than go back to high school. High school has nothing more to offer me...
I forgot I was blogging. Awkward. I just found this page open. Well. I'll try to continue my train of thought.
I don't know. I just want the whole process to take 5 minutes. I don't have time to do all of this shit. I'm way too busy. I get about 2-3 hours a day to myself. I guess that is good... except I take them out of my sleep time. Usually my day goes something like this now:
Wake up sometime between 6am-6:45am
Get ready for school Until about 7:20am ish
Eat breakfast + go on the computer until 7:40ish
Get dressed for school
Go to school for 8:10ish.
School until 2:30
Either go to the gym right after, have cross country right after, or have work right after.
If I have work right after, it is until 7pm. Otherwise it is until either 4pm-6pm.
If I don't have work, I take a shower and then do homework and then have about 3hours of whatever time.
If I do have work I go to the gym afterwards until about 9-10pm (depending) and then get home and shower by 11pm. Then I usually go straight to bed. There isn't time for homework, but at my job I am allowed to do homework (which is awesome).
Like come on life. Really? Really? I know I need to stop. I am stressing myself out... its only the first week back.
But I just can't. Its an addiction. I think an alcohol addiction isn't as bad as this. Okay I take that back. My Dad was an alcoholic, and that was worse than any of this.
But still. I just can't wait to move out and start learning subjects I ENJOY.
Right now I am planning on doing a combination or some of these things:
BA in Philosophy, possibly later a Masters or PhD
BA in Sociology
BA in Political Science
BEd (Bachelor of Education) and possibly a Masters or PhD in Education
BA in Psychology
So that is where that stands.
Schools I am currently (somewhat interested in) (In Somewhat of an order)
Lakehead
Trent
Carleton
Brock
Guelph
Guhhaaaahh. Gahwwwhw. Ffasjdfhkawe. Fahiwuehca. Fudge.
Goodbye
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