This is my 3rd attempt of writing a blog

I wrote two blogs previous to this blog, that were both depressing. So I am just going to not do that.

HIDDEN TALENTS! I love hearing about people's hidden talents. I just think its so interesting how you can know everything about a person and then just find out something new about them and be like WHOA! I didn't know you could do that!

Anyways. So I began thinking, what is my secret talent? I was trying to think. I thought knitting! Then I realized I am not good at knitting. I can knit, but I am not good at it. I haven't done it in a few months, but I still remember how to knit.

I thought baking, maybe. But I feel like quite a few people know I bake. I don't do this too often anyways.

There are some other things like debating, running, lifting, sewing, etc., that I thought maybe that is my secret talent. I was thinking running is my secret talent. But then I realized that many people now know I run, from my facebook pictures. But thats not it.

Then I realized... okay. In no way shape or form am I claiming that I am this person, or that I am good at it.. but let me explain.
I think my hidden talent is rapping.
OKAY! I do not have a "good" rapping voice, for rapping. But I can talk/"rap" really fast. I can keep up with busta rhymes at times. Its not like I make up rhymes/raps. But it is a hidden talent because
1) Not too many people (if any) know about it
2) It's not really expected

Example... I can rap Busta Rhymes' part in Justin Biebers "Drummer Boy". I can rap part (not all) of busta rhymes' part in look at me now.

So. Yeah. I found my secret talent. Will you ever hear me rap? Likely not.

Well people do say existentialists contradict themselves

So I frequently point out when somebody is doing something morally/ethically not to society's standards. I can make them feel bad and then they question whatever they are doing.

Its so funny because I do not live within society's general moral code. (Says the individualist, egoist and existentialist).

But that is contradicting, right? Thats what I was thinking. I was just like... wait... I am telling people to act morally while I do not (unless I choose to).

Then I realized that opinion I had right there was incorrect. I found a loophole.

Since I do not adhere to the moral code, it doesn't make it wrong to tell a person to follow the moral code.

PLUS usually when I tell people to act "ethically", it is generally for my advantage (egoism).

Haha I am so happy.

The reason why I was pondering this, is because I am currently arguing with a company that is making me pay a cancellation fee. The only thing they have on me is that I hit "I agree to these terms and conditions". But I already have 3 arguments against them just for that point.

Here is a tip:
The easiest way to win any case (this isn't a court case, but still) with a large corporation is to make you seem like the innocent by-stander. Just talk about how this is effecting you, make them feel bad about it, question their morals and ask them why they would be mean. If this is in court, it should work nicely. Otherwise, you may have to just show the public the way this company is treating you.

But here is an example:
You are trying to return a $40 purchase at a store, and part of your receipt is torn and you don't know where the other part is. They say you must have the entire receipt. Well, tell them how this is $40 you are out. Ask them specifically say "As a person, how would you feel if $40 was ripped out of your bank account right now?" say things like "This could pay for  some groceries for me/my family". In any way shape or form, make them seem like the bad guy. Always ask for upper management. Never be afraid to make an EDUCATED SCENE. What I mean is don't panic on the floor, know what you are talking about. Have legitimate arguments planned out for what you want to say. For example (for this argument):
Say JC Penny allows returns WITHOUT receipts
Say that paper tears easily, and it is not your fault that this store doesn't print things out in stone or tattoo them onto your body

DO NOT say things like "You have lost all of my future business from this store". They don't care.

The other funny thing is that I say I am an egoist, individualist and existentialist, and yet I do not follow any philosophical principles... including them. Because they all basically mean I live my life for me and only me. So it would be another contradiction to say I follow these principles, because then you are really contradicting yourself.

Get it? Probably not.

See you in the future.

Are you serious?

Changed my mind. Again.

Currently now I want to double major in Political science and philosophy. I will:
- Have children
- Get a BA in Poli sci and philosophy
- Get a BEd and maybe my masters or phd (bachelor of education)
- Get married
- Become a highschool teacher, maybe a university professor later in life
- Become an MPP, accepting a $0 salary, while I am at a profession where I earn money
- I'm going to write some books.

There we go. Sounds about right. Maybe not in that order. But I may change my mind eventually.

In other news, I am the fastest female runner on cross country, may be organizing a fundraiser in GSA, I am going to write a letter to two people in government about Bill 115, and I am avoiding talking to Guidance at school because I don't want to talk about universities.

Also, my left wrist is currently killing me, and I don't have time to go to the hospital to get it checked out. Or the doctors. I know it is a terrible decision, but either I miss sleep, the gym, or school. All three of those are more valuable to me. Just the gym might fuck my wrist up more. I am doing legs tomorrow at the gym anyways. I will get it checked out before the weekend is over though.

K SO BYE.

Nervous smile.

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Okay. So if you haven't seen by my twitter, I am really pissed at Bill 115. I actually read part of it, so its not just like I'm spazzing the fuck out for no reason. The reason why I am so involved in this is because
1) It has already, and may in the future affect my extra-curriculars
2) I have the highest respect for many of my teachers, as you all know, and they are like my friends to me, so anything that is hurting them, hurts me.

I am not going to go on and on about Bill 115 in this post. If you want to see some of my opinions, go to my twitter @SarahFloria where I argue the Liberal Media Office, which only gives out generic responses. I'd rather just have a full on conversation with Dalton McGuinty, thank you very much.

But anyways. Back to my career quest. Ugh. The word "career" as you all know.. gahh. Just look at my old blog about why I think aiming for a career is stupid.

I keep narrowing down more and more where I want to go in life (it is somewhat career oriented, but not exactly) but that is my choice to want to do that. But I will narrow it down, then think of something old or new, and then broaden all of my options again. It keeps repeating this.

As I said I want to learn Philosophy, Sociology and Political science right now.

But I am getting back on the whole "Education" scheme. I don't necessarily want to be a teacher, but I do want degrees in Education, because I believe it is so fascinating to learn this stuff. Yes, it was partially inspired by Bill 115, but also I have just been thinking about it again. I just love education way too much... based on society's terms of how much I should love it.

But I want to get into politics as well. I also decided that I want to get into Provincial politics. So what if I go into Provincial government, and try to work on fixing the education system up the way I want it? Maybe along the way I will be able to affect other things and get my opinion out MORE. Which is something else I wanted to do, was to get my opinion out.

So maybe becoming an MPP or the Premier, wouldn't be such a bad idea.

But then where does Philosophy play in this career move? Oh wait, GOTCHA!

It doesn't. I want to learn philosophy, but it doesn't have much to do with where I want to go into politics with. But why does that matter? I want to learn it. It doesn't have to apply to a specific career path.

So currently I have decided on nothing. I don't even know if I want to take Poli sci. I just think if I am going into politics it makes logical sense. But I think I need to read more into what the Poli sci program offers me.

So. Yeah. That is that for now.

Fuck bill 115.
Support our teachers, for they support us, more than most of us will ever understand. 

POW bowowowo POW bowowow simply having a wonderful christmastime

I am currently 1 foot away from my calendar. It is in arms reach. It still says August. I could easily get up and change it, but I need tape. The tape is about 6 feet away from me. Sometime soon I will change it.

Anyways. I thought I would be creative and do a weird blog. The top 7 weirdest food combinations I have tried/made (that I can remember)


7. Legit Vanilla ice cream in bread. I feel this is somewhat common to children who just wanted a legit "ice cream sandwich", which is why it is # 7.

6. Fries in Icecream. I see people doing this all of the time, but at first when people hear it they think "ew gross". I got more than one of my friends to try it after they said "ew gross" and then REALLY liked it. One friend a week later, we went to Mcdonalds to get fries and ice cream together.

5. Broccoli and Peanut Butter. I'm not exactly sure how common this is... I have heard of carrots and peanut butter. But it is again, really good. The textures don't mix as well as I'd like, but it makes a good healthy snack!

4. Melted Cheese with Popcorn. I tried to dip the popcorn in the melted cheese. It was okay, but I only did it once.

3. Celery with Salsa. Yes. No explanation here.

2. Popcorn in Hot Chocolate. This is my 2nd favourite out of these 7, ice cream and fries being #1. But I LOVE IT SO MUCH. I just had some a couple of hours ago. I think I was inspired to start dipping my popcorn in my hot chocolate when I felt like popcorn and then made hot chocolate.... it was a while ago.

1. Melted Cheese on Multigrain Cheerios.  I was honestly trying to be really weird when I did this. It wasn't that bad at all. Its just weird. I think I did this twice...

Anyways, to add to my weirdness, I am listening to Christmas music right now.

In other news, it is getting cold outside and I am extremely happy because that means:
1. Running will be less sweaty and gross
2. Leaves will start changing soon :)
3. My birthday is approaching
4. CHRISTMAS AND WINTER AND SNOW ARE COMING

Actually, I really want to write a blog about Christmas right now... I'll just add it onto this blog.

I know I mentioned this somewhat on my old blog... but I have the weirdest connection to Christmas.

I just love it so much. I get so generous and loving and happy. The snow makes me so happy. I love School around Christmas. I love work around Christmas. I love life around christmas. I don't understand why... but I always just feel the need to throw Christmas parties and be charitible. I know, a lot of others feel like this too, obviously. It is common. But for me, it is just so exciting.

I start getting pumped for Christmas around April... I at least start thinking about it. Then August I just get all geared up and HYPER for it and start my Christmas shopping (Yes, I ALWAYS have started Christmas shopping by the end of August).  

Last year I didn't have a Christmas party with friends... because things were weird and complicated and whatever. But this year I so want to! But again, I feel like things will be weird and complicated. Maybe I'll just go sledding with my cousin (which is what I said I would do last year, and never did).

I don't know. I just love Secret Santas and baking cookies (shit I'm going to have to do hardcore cardio around christmas). I don't know.

I want to say there is something deeply psychological about this whole thing.

But I also openly say I celebrate Christmas, commercially. I am not a Christian. I celebrate having fun and family and friends. This is the only time I am fine with being around family. Every other time I want to kill them.

But I just remember this one Christmas party in particular. The one with the stockings! (Friends who read my blog, remember?). But yeah, we did a secret santa exchange, and then there we made these stockings that I bought supplies from the dollar store for! And we decorated them then hung them. Then for the stockings everybody either made something or bought something small, for like a couple of dollars per stocking and then we went around and filled eachothers stockings. Except I spent like $10 per stocking. I was planning on doing that the whole time too. I was just so excited.

There was the Christmas party.. wait DID I HAVE A CHRISTMAS PARTY LAST YEAR? No. It was the year before. It was the year that instead of an exchange we all made things together. We each brought a craft to make and we made crafts. That was so fun! I remember that. But my favourite was still the stocking year.

The first one was just like random playing and stuff. Not playing. I just remember we went to a snowbank in the church parking lot. Then we were at my house... I don't remember.

But that was back when I like organized all of the friend things. Eventually I was just like.. so... are we doing anything for christmas? Then we ended up at my house.

I was the only one at every party...

Alex was there the first one or two.
Sarah was at all of them except the last one
Ami was only at the Last one.
Jesha was at 2?
Lauren was at 2? 3? I forget.
Wait. Was Kasi at every party? I think Kasi was. Gytha might've been.. But I don't think so for some reason...

Anyways

Who knows. I hope that we do something this Christmas. Get EVERYONE in one place. Whether we do it like December 1st or like December 20th or December 31st. Either way. It will happen. Or.. I hope it will. Like nobody lives in Belleville anymore. We don't even have to go to Belleville.

Whatever.

Goodnight. I'm going to think of christmas all night

To be scared, or not to be.

I don't want to admit that I am scared for next year. I really don't. Which is why I am not. I guess I did... but no. Nope. Of course not.

Moving out... is what I have wanted ever since grade 9!
Going into university... is what I have wanted ever since grade 7!

What? I guess its normal to feel nervous. I still have grade 12 ahead of me.

But I seriously need to talk to someone in guidance. I need a legit hour to sit down and talk about university shit. More like 10 hours.

I still don't know where I want to go.
I still don't know what I want to study.

I have the slightest idea, but I really have no clue because I'm trying to keep my options open.

I remember back in Grade 9/10. I basically "knew" it. Psychology to become a psychologist and going to Waterloo. Right. No idea why I chose waterloo in the first place. Its not even in my top 5 slightest ideas.

I am not staying for grade 13. There is no way. If I stay for Grade 13... I am moving out of the house.. at least. Maybe out of the city. I'll go to another high school. I'd rather do college for a year than go back to high school. High school has nothing more to offer me...

I forgot I was blogging. Awkward. I just found this page open. Well. I'll try to continue my train of thought.

I don't know. I just want the whole process to take 5 minutes. I don't have time to do all of this shit. I'm way too busy. I get about 2-3 hours a day to myself. I guess that is good... except I take them out of my sleep time. Usually my day goes something like this now:

Wake up sometime between 6am-6:45am
Get ready for school Until about 7:20am ish
Eat breakfast + go on the computer until 7:40ish
Get dressed for school
Go to school for 8:10ish.
School until 2:30
Either go to the gym right after, have cross country right after, or have work right after.
If I have work right after, it is until 7pm. Otherwise it is until either 4pm-6pm.
If I don't have work, I take a shower and then do homework and then have about 3hours of whatever time.
If I do have work I go to the gym afterwards until about 9-10pm (depending) and then get home and shower by 11pm. Then I usually go straight to bed. There isn't time for homework, but at my job I am allowed to do homework (which is awesome).

Like come on life. Really? Really? I know I need to stop. I am stressing myself out... its only the first week back.

But I just can't. Its an addiction. I think an alcohol addiction isn't as bad as this. Okay I take that back. My Dad was an alcoholic, and that was worse than any of this.

But still. I just can't wait to move out and start learning subjects I ENJOY.

Right now I am planning on doing a combination or some of these things:
BA in Philosophy, possibly later a Masters or PhD
BA in Sociology
BA in Political Science
BEd (Bachelor of Education) and possibly a Masters or PhD in Education
BA in Psychology

So that is where that stands.

Schools I am currently (somewhat interested in) (In Somewhat of an order)
Lakehead
Trent
Carleton
Brock
Guelph

Guhhaaaahh. Gahwwwhw. Ffasjdfhkawe. Fahiwuehca. Fudge.

Goodbye

Howdy Hi.

I'm back from Ottawa! I don't want to talk too much about my trip, I might on my other blog, maybe not tonight though... which if the viewers on this blog aren't aware is at : http://beingastrongerme.blogspot.ca/

Anyways.

I've just been so... different lately. I just can tell that so many things in my life are shifting.

As readers of this blog know, I have a lot of... different/interesting ideas, as I like to call them. They tend to be unrealistic, as they should be. But I just find myself thinking these things more often. Like first they create a spark or a thought inspired by something I have witnessed somewhere else, or just coming from almost nowhere. Then they become more of an idea in my head. Then I try to learn more about what I am thinking and then it sort of becomes more like... a meditation or a mantra to me. I.e: It becomes apart of my philosophy.

Its just lately, my Philosophy on what life SHOULD be is starting to blend into my actual life. Which is nice.

For example, my opinions on government. I don't openly say I am an anarchist... and I am not a complete anarchist at that, anyways. But without getting into that, I have been more openly telling people that I am one. Or, at least my mom is. My mom thinks I am completely crazy, if I have never mentioned this before. But anyways, I was staying over at my mom's friends' place in Ottawa, and she was talking to me about school stuff. She asked me the dreaded question of "What I want to do". Now, you all saw my recent blog post in which I explained my "What I want to do".

Well the honest truth is: That is what I am going to do (Please look at that post if you have no idea what I am talking about) but when I tell people that, I hate/love their reactions.

I tell her "Philosophy". Then she just is like "Okay. Okay Okay". Then I say "I am either double majoring in Philosophy with sociology or Political science". Then she basically took that as me saying "I am double majoring in sociology and political science". No. Philosophy will be my main subject of study.

I got off track. My mom's friend asked me my opinions on government at one point (like which party I preferred). I sort of was stuck thinking, because I haven't been paying attention to Canadian politics at all lately. (Whoops.). My mom said to her "Well, she thinks more like not having a government.".

But my mom says it in a condescending tone.

Anyways, my mom's friend was trying to figure out my brain a bit (the ENTIRE TIME I was staying at her house) and was asking me random questions like "Well do you not like the government because of peace (blah blah blah) or because you believe they are controlling people and (blah blah blah)". So I said "Kind of like controlling people.". She was like "Oh. Ha! Ha! Ha!" and laughed. I was like. LOLWUT.

Driving me nuts.

Anyways. But this is what I said, my Philosophies are beginning to enter the new world. WHAT. I mean real. Like, non-internet. Well, they already have with friends and my mom. Also, a couple of teachers. But I just feel like this year in school could be interesting in Law (if I take it, which I have to get into it) and English and possible World Issues and History and Writers Craft. Basically everywhere.

I don't know.

Anyways. I say anyways a lot. I say that I say anyways a lot, a lot.