Rant: pls ignore.

I am getting so angry at people lately. Oh fuck people are just getting on my nerves.

I've never been a people-person, confident, well versed on the spot, etc. I'm the type of person that regrets the things I don't say, not the things that I do say.

I have just been constantly disappointed by the people I have seen in society lately.

A single mother of 11 using the system to get by living in a hellhole
A customer complaining about an issue that isn't even hers and sweats profusely while yelling because of how overweight she is
A pre-teen who tried to give me an unwarranted talk as if he knew what he was talking about
A woman in prison who gave birth and than put her baby in the toilet saying she "miscarried" when she literally gave birth and then put her own child in a fucking toilet to die
The woman who said her husband and her discussed my tattoo over dinner
WHAT?

What the fucking hell. I usually keep my nose out of people's business: especially fucking strangers business. Fucking high school me might've been ecstatic that some people were discussing my tattoo. Sure, I don't fucking care if you talk about me behind my back, whether it good or bad, just do not fucking tell me about it afterwards.

Talk about how you want to fuck me, masturbate thinking about it: but do not actually do it to me or tell me about what you fucking jack off to.

I actually straight up overheard a guy telling another guy while I was at work that he was picturing "not only my kids with her (me) but our grandkids". Jesus fucking christ I don't care if you think that but do not say that in earshot. It's kind of fucking upsetting.

If you like my ass, don't fucking whistle at me, think about it later, or if you take a fucking picture of it, don't let me see you take a picture of it and for fuck sakes do not fucking share it online.

I am just getting so tired of the same old uneducated kinds of people that I am forced to interact with on a daily basis and be nice to because I am paid $11.25 to do so. Pay me $50 an hour and I'll shut the fuck up but minimum wage isn't enough for me not to swear back when you swear at me. The customer is rarely correct. I work for the store. There is nothing in the back, literally nothing. I've been here for years, I think I know our fucking stock without looking.

I was going to say that in order to have peace of mind that I need to stop caring about this shit but I really don't. I obviously care about certain things, such as my wonderances as to how come the city in which I live has such a high populous of unintelligent folk.

I believe some things are genetic, but honestly, how has our actual education system failed so many of the people I have to interact with? The odd thing: sure! Everyone has their moment in which they forget, don't know and whatnot, but when you fucking come into the store I work in and ask "Do you have those books that you read?" and I look at you like you're a fucking retard, don't ask me why (yes this happened recently).

I've been trying to have a more positive outlook upon things and even though I can acknowledge the negative, I need to focus more on the positive. Sure, that makes me feel good, emotionally. But by focusing on the bad, the negative, it makes me "all up in arms" and makes me feel like I should actually do something. But at the same exact time I feel powerless.

I'm sure this post is riddled with fallacies, I didn't even quite have an argument: that is what rants are for, I suppose.

Sorry, I'm sure someday I might actually have some kind of quality of post. Maybe I'll follow up on this someday with a few less f-bombs.

Probably not.

Until next time,

Sarah