Summer 2015. Oh boy, it is here! I consider the summer to be the times in which I am not in school, not when it is shorts weather. I have a habit of creating goals for my breaks, like reading week, winter holidays and especially the summer, so I think I should do that again.
So how do I want to improve my life this time, bitch? Oh fuck. Shit. I hate thinking like this. I hate assuming everything always sucks all of the time and that I have to just stop the sucking... that's what she said...? But I do. I think that everything always sucks. My fiancé and I are quoted saying "Life sucks and then you die" constantly. I find it to be true. My fiancé got a full time job: good! He earns over minimum wage: AWESOME! The government takes about 15-20% of his paycheque to put towards CPP, EI, etc: shit. Shitty shitty shitballs. That fucking sucks that his salary works out to be $10.10/hour once the government steals his shit.
I spent a good 10 minutes convincing him that he can't do anything about it. "You don't vote. You can revoke your residency in Canada but then you have nowhere to live, no benefits, no healthcare, nothing. You can't do anything. Complaining to me won't work because I can't do shit either". It's all true and it is all shit. But maybe I need to stop thinking like this. If you read my blog avidly you can see a theme of depression and hopelessness. I hate hope. More on that on a future blog post, perhaps.
So what the fuck are my goals this summer? What else am I sucking at?
Consumerism. I am the biggest consumer now. I think it is because I am starting to care about the way I look more. I like fashion a lot, and I am getting more and more into makeup. Okay, that's cool, you like fashion and whatnot, but my problem is I started craving brand names. I want RayBans, fucking sue me! I could get $15 sunglasses at Winners or get sunglasses 2/$15 at the mall, but no. I want RayBans. So I need to stop this? At first my summer goal was to earn a lot of money so I could buy everything I wanted.
Of course I have the wedding this summer maybe. I still need to plan it. I think that when I tell people that I am not looking forward to planning my wedding that they think my marriage is going to fail. But I think that the fact that I am annoyed with wedding planning just shows how much that the marriage is about marriage and not about a wedding so it is in fact a good thing. Either way, I'm still planning a wedding for a possible date ofSeptember 6th but I didn't say that...
Back to goals. So what do I want to improve... ew.
I want money. This goal may not be attainable since I work part-time and I can't find full-time work despite the fact that I have been applying to places since January. I had one interview to be a Barista and I haven't heard back yet, but despite having barista experience, I don't think I will get it. So if I don't get money, I'll have to focus on something else.
I want to lose weight or not lose weight or something. I want to change my body composition. Recently I hit 145lbs which is the most I've ever weighed. I kind of ran my marathon and then gained 15lbs. Whoops! I've already lost 10lbs though. I wanted to hit 125lbs again but I don't know if that will happen. I just want to be happy in a crop top. I want to be able to wear a crop top out without hating my body. So if that means losing the next 10lbs or just improving my body image, who knows!
I want to write more. Maybe a book, maybe my blog.
I want to keep the apartment clean and re-organize it. Nick and I still have 2+ years here. We have 2 years left of our undergrads but he has to make up some courses so he/we could be here another semester which is depressing and I don't want to think about it.
I definitely want to eat healthier. Especially if I am not working more than 20 hours in a week. I have all of the time in the world to go to the market and cut up fresh fruits and veggies and prepare healthy and tasty meals for my fiancé and I. Since he is working I am taking on more of the housewife role. When he was unemployed he was more of a housewife. It just works.
I want to plan the wedding by the end of May. I know it is last minute for a late-summer/early-fall wedding but we aren't getting married at Gatsby's house, we are probably going to get married in a park, so it doesn't require as much time for booking.
So let's actually word these wants into goals:
1. Get a new job. I will do this by job searching online everyday or when I have free time.
2. Continue going to the gym, increase it to 5-6x instead of 4x since I have more time now.
3. If I don't get a job, especially, I will begin writing a book. Probably adult fiction, no lie. If not, I am going to re-design my blog and keep up with it more.
4. I am going to re-organize the apartment, throw out old stuff I don't need/sell it, and make it nicer appearing in general. Maybe buy a couple new things for organization.
5. Eat healthier in general, but don't stop completely. I will be unhappy if I can't drink my beer and eat poutine. I am so fucking Canadian you can't even understand right now.
6. Plan the wedding by May 31st.
ALSO
7. I am running a half-marathon in Ottawa in May. Run it in under 1:55. Right now my half-marathon time is probably 2:10ish... I have a month exactly. Let's see what I can do!
I have said this forever but I also want to start a youtube channel. I have done things a couple of times, like vlogs but they were so boring. I want to do a variety channel with different things, DIY tutorials, makeup tutorials, hauls, vlogs, rants. I am the weirdest combination of stereotypes that my channel will be so confusing.
LASTLY... I will be doing a 31-day blog challenge to keep up with blogging and get back into it, starting May 1st. I am going to come up with 15 topics and leave the other half of the blog to whatever I feel like writing because sometimes I just want to write about what I want to write about.
So stick around.
So how do I want to improve my life this time, bitch? Oh fuck. Shit. I hate thinking like this. I hate assuming everything always sucks all of the time and that I have to just stop the sucking... that's what she said...? But I do. I think that everything always sucks. My fiancé and I are quoted saying "Life sucks and then you die" constantly. I find it to be true. My fiancé got a full time job: good! He earns over minimum wage: AWESOME! The government takes about 15-20% of his paycheque to put towards CPP, EI, etc: shit. Shitty shitty shitballs. That fucking sucks that his salary works out to be $10.10/hour once the government steals his shit.
I spent a good 10 minutes convincing him that he can't do anything about it. "You don't vote. You can revoke your residency in Canada but then you have nowhere to live, no benefits, no healthcare, nothing. You can't do anything. Complaining to me won't work because I can't do shit either". It's all true and it is all shit. But maybe I need to stop thinking like this. If you read my blog avidly you can see a theme of depression and hopelessness. I hate hope. More on that on a future blog post, perhaps.
So what the fuck are my goals this summer? What else am I sucking at?
Consumerism. I am the biggest consumer now. I think it is because I am starting to care about the way I look more. I like fashion a lot, and I am getting more and more into makeup. Okay, that's cool, you like fashion and whatnot, but my problem is I started craving brand names. I want RayBans, fucking sue me! I could get $15 sunglasses at Winners or get sunglasses 2/$15 at the mall, but no. I want RayBans. So I need to stop this? At first my summer goal was to earn a lot of money so I could buy everything I wanted.
Of course I have the wedding this summer maybe. I still need to plan it. I think that when I tell people that I am not looking forward to planning my wedding that they think my marriage is going to fail. But I think that the fact that I am annoyed with wedding planning just shows how much that the marriage is about marriage and not about a wedding so it is in fact a good thing. Either way, I'm still planning a wedding for a possible date of
Back to goals. So what do I want to improve... ew.
I want money. This goal may not be attainable since I work part-time and I can't find full-time work despite the fact that I have been applying to places since January. I had one interview to be a Barista and I haven't heard back yet, but despite having barista experience, I don't think I will get it. So if I don't get money, I'll have to focus on something else.
I want to lose weight or not lose weight or something. I want to change my body composition. Recently I hit 145lbs which is the most I've ever weighed. I kind of ran my marathon and then gained 15lbs. Whoops! I've already lost 10lbs though. I wanted to hit 125lbs again but I don't know if that will happen. I just want to be happy in a crop top. I want to be able to wear a crop top out without hating my body. So if that means losing the next 10lbs or just improving my body image, who knows!
I want to write more. Maybe a book, maybe my blog.
I want to keep the apartment clean and re-organize it. Nick and I still have 2+ years here. We have 2 years left of our undergrads but he has to make up some courses so he/we could be here another semester which is depressing and I don't want to think about it.
I definitely want to eat healthier. Especially if I am not working more than 20 hours in a week. I have all of the time in the world to go to the market and cut up fresh fruits and veggies and prepare healthy and tasty meals for my fiancé and I. Since he is working I am taking on more of the housewife role. When he was unemployed he was more of a housewife. It just works.
I want to plan the wedding by the end of May. I know it is last minute for a late-summer/early-fall wedding but we aren't getting married at Gatsby's house, we are probably going to get married in a park, so it doesn't require as much time for booking.
So let's actually word these wants into goals:
1. Get a new job. I will do this by job searching online everyday or when I have free time.
2. Continue going to the gym, increase it to 5-6x instead of 4x since I have more time now.
3. If I don't get a job, especially, I will begin writing a book. Probably adult fiction, no lie. If not, I am going to re-design my blog and keep up with it more.
4. I am going to re-organize the apartment, throw out old stuff I don't need/sell it, and make it nicer appearing in general. Maybe buy a couple new things for organization.
5. Eat healthier in general, but don't stop completely. I will be unhappy if I can't drink my beer and eat poutine. I am so fucking Canadian you can't even understand right now.
6. Plan the wedding by May 31st.
ALSO
7. I am running a half-marathon in Ottawa in May. Run it in under 1:55. Right now my half-marathon time is probably 2:10ish... I have a month exactly. Let's see what I can do!
I have said this forever but I also want to start a youtube channel. I have done things a couple of times, like vlogs but they were so boring. I want to do a variety channel with different things, DIY tutorials, makeup tutorials, hauls, vlogs, rants. I am the weirdest combination of stereotypes that my channel will be so confusing.
LASTLY... I will be doing a 31-day blog challenge to keep up with blogging and get back into it, starting May 1st. I am going to come up with 15 topics and leave the other half of the blog to whatever I feel like writing because sometimes I just want to write about what I want to write about.
So stick around.
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