This here, is a blog post about religion.

I haven't blogged in over two weeks. The past two weeks have literally been the weirdest ever. 


I have just had the weirdest conversations and the most awkward confrontations with a few people. I have had a couple of huge personal realizations, 1 mental breakdown, and about 50 awkward thoughts. 


All I know, is based upon these two weeks, I think this summer is going to be pretty awesome. 


But that is not what I am blogging about. I am blogging about religion. 


Now, I know that everyone is going to ignore this, but just to clarify, these are my personal beliefs, I do not put anybody's personal beliefs below mine, well thats a half-lie, I do. I believe my assumptions are correct, but I do not believe yours are incorrect. I respect your religion and the idea of you having a religion. I do not put down religions, or other people's thoughts and beliefs. I just put mine out there so much, that sometimes it comes off as hurtful comments.


So as a disclaimer, if I insult you in any way shape or form, I apologize. If I insult your RELIGION in any way shape or form, I do not apologize. I respect your opinions and thoughts of religion, but whether or not I respect your actual religion, is up to me. Likely, I do. I can't think of any religions I currently flat out disrespect.


But here we go.


I was raised an Anglican Christian. Until about age 8/9 I stopped going to Sunday School/Church, because of the dumbest reason ever (I got into a fight with my mom over a pair of pants she didn't want me to wear yet to church, and I wanted to, so she didn't let me go to Sunday school as a punishment... just for that Sunday, but after that day, I slowly trickled away from going).


But after I stopped going to church, I was still considering myself a Christian. I would go to a couple of my friends youth groups from time to time, I would attend family baptisms, weddings, funerals, etc. A couple of times I became more religious on my own, and would wear my cross necklace more often. I would also watch Sunday Services online in Live Streams from churches. 


But then suddenly, within the past 2 years, my views have been changing more. Back then, I had no idea what religion was. I just thought it was something everybody did. I wasn't even overly aware that other religions existed until I was probably 10-12 years of age. 


But then I found out that Athiesm exists and was like, whoa. 


I am not 100% how my thought process of religion worked.


I became more spiritual, for example, into angels, tarot cards, spirits, learning about the afterlife, psychic, etc. I am less spiritual then I have been now.


But I guess about a year ago I officially stopped calling myself a Christian, because I just sort of shifted away from it. 


I had called myself different religions though. Like Spiritualist Christian, Agnostic, Spiritualist, Agnostic Theist, Spiritual Agnostic (basically agnostic). 


But I guess I have similar morals (like all of society) to the Christian church. I do still carry some Christian beliefs, but I guess thats a given. 


But down to my beliefs currently:


I do not believe there is a god. I believe that every living thing on this earth (plants, animals (humans)) is equal. Yes, I believe that I am as important to this earth as Cannabis, or an Earthworm. I believe that everything in this earth serves an equal purpose, therefore should be considered equal.


This being said, I don't believe in higher powers. I believe that things like "Gods" and "higher powers" and things like Feudalism, and any other chain that shows something at the top and something at the bottom, are just because people throughout history have been somewhat stumped/confused as to who/what to look up to. 


People think they need someone in charge of them or someone to look up to. Kids have parents, for example. We have bosses at work, and teachers and school, that have some form of responsibility over us.


So society teaches us that we need to look up to a certain figure. Then all people in history ask themselves, well who do these higher powers look up to? Kings? Gods? 


Believing in a god simply gives some people a purpose, in my opinion. I know that sometimes I wish I could just get down and pray to a god and ask for things to get better, its a great feeling, I admit it. Its a great feeling to think that something else is above you and responsible for you.


But as an individualist, I believe that you are responsible for governing your own actions. 


But I think people that do pray, in a sense its good for them. Because if a person truly believes in a god, and prays to the god to... let's say, get a girlfriend (this is a REALLY FAR stretch) but lets say somebody prays to find a girlfriend, and maybe by simply "praying" this thought in their brain triggers other things to actually go out and find a girlfriend. I think this false hope from people above you (who don't exist, and are a figment of your imagination) can inspired people to actually get things done and change their life.


Sorry, have I lost you yet? 


Now, I don't believe in gods, as I said, I think every one is equal.


But I do believe in some form of afterlife, reincarnation, etc. Why?


Well, let me get into the Spiritual/Religion VS Science debate.


Scientists will basically tell you, there is no afterlife, correct? (If I am wrong, please do correct me). But its because they have NO FACTS to back it up. Correct?


Well, heres a question. 10,000 years ago, did we have facts to prove that Pi = 3.14159? No. 


That is a mathematical/scientific... CREATION. Thats right, went there. Creation. 


There were no facts to prove pi = 3.14. There still aren't, in my opinion. It is a created THEORY. 


But anyways, straying from the point. There are no facts to back it up.


I am a spiritualist. I think the spirit moves on to something else, after the body decays. The body gets worn out physically from all of the mental and physical tortures it has been through in this life. The spirit lives.


Some people believe that people don't have spirits. Let me start off by asking you, what does a spirit mean to you? Your emotions, and thoughts? The soul? 


I think that there is more to life then just your body aging and decaying. I know that thats what science says. But maybe the spirit doesn't exist. I have no proof to prove that it does. But I don't believe "YOLO". 


I gotta say, my favourite thing is when Christians say "YOLO!" because do they not know that Christianity generally believes that you don't only live once? It believes in things like the afterlife (heaven), etc.


Again, digression.


Okay. My general point with the afterlife, I guess is that I think there is more to life than what is known. We discover new things everyday in science and in general. For some reason people think that we haven't discovered everything. Well I think that we haven't discovered the spirit as much as we can. Maybe we cannot visit the afterlife or reincarnation, but we certainly can strengthen our spirits, in my opinion.


Now, my idea of the afterlife is different from chrstianity's, though. I don't think that its like going to heaven or hell. I believe that different spirits can move on to being other living things, i.e., reincarnation. If I told you what I REALLY believe about reincarnation, people would think I am a bit more of a freak, than I am already trying to lead you to believe. But I think that people can also be ghosts, angels., etc. Hell, I think you can be reincarnated as a rat, a piece of grass, a bird, another human, a bull... any living thing... no, anything with a spirit. 


The spirit can move on. The body cannot. That is that.


So in general, I guess I will just say I am an agnostic.


Although I don't believe there is a god, I do not fully disregard the possibility that there is one. I don't know, so I can't officially say there isn't. But based on my beliefs there isn''t.
And Although I believe there is some form of afterlife, I do not fully disregard the possibility that there is not one. 


Its just a fine line. So thats why I guess I'm an agnostic. Unless theres some other word to describe my religion that I am unaware of. 


The things that inspired this blog post have been:
- Things I learned in Grade 11 History this year
- The Funeral I was at on Saturday
- A podcast I listened to, of some of my favourite youtubers (Who are Mormons)


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