New Things I want to Try in 2012

Okay, as you may or may not know, I love setting goals. I am not really HUGE on New Years resolutions, because people tend to not really put them in perspective and follow them out. I already did a "goal" blog, but in a sense, these are goals, but they are things I want to do in 2012.
Most of these things will take a lot of guts and time to actually make happen, but I am going to try my hardest! I might print off this list and put it up somewhere to haunt me until I do them.



1. Skiing
I have NEVER been skiing and used to call it "stupid". I didn't realize why until this year. Once when I was younger I was sledding down a hill, I hit one of the bumps that are there for people to do tricks off of and I went off of it and spun in the air and fell on my head. I never wanted to sled AGAIN let a lone ski. But I got over the sledding thing years ago and now I am like... wtf? I wanna ski!

2. Water Skiing.
Pretty much the same thing... I don't know where I can actually do it though. I know that this one camp that my friends went to for gymnastics has it... maybe we should all go back and I can do the water skiing? :)

3. GET A MASSAGE.
My friend and I want to go, but we are seriously procrastinating.

4. Make a Rap
Okay. This is going to be a serious WTF moment for most people reading this, but I like rapping comedically, sort of. It's just kind of a rnandom fun thing I do. I don't careeeee

5. Stand Up Comedy
I want to make up an act. I do not want to perform it, just in my room type of thing. But I want to try it.

6. Yoga
I do yoga now at home, but eventually I want to join a class.



What new things do you want to try in 2012?

Holistic VS Allopathic.

I choose Holistic everytime.

Most of you reading this will be like WTF is that? Well...

I will explain some of it, but first PLEASE go to this link, it will explain a lot. ESPECIALLY the chart at the bottom. http://www.holistic.com/holistic/learning.nsf/ed8732a8bed2f2a4872569060015ca74/6d6ad242c4e75c9c87256b8f00021919!OpenDocument

So as you hopefully just read, holistic health is a lot of natural healing and not using drugs, and pills to get better. Its a lot more spiritual in a sense, and less scientific.

I am very pro-holistic health. I never really knew what the word for it was until recently.

Anyways, I am pro-holistic because I believe that what there was originally on earth is all we need. We don't NEED laptops or pills. If we just had our resources we'd be fine. If we were happier and more calm and ate healthier and ran everywhere instead of driving, we wouldn't even have the holistic vs allopathic fight.

Frequently in my philosophy I reflect back upon the earth, before huge society's were formed, and my idea of what it was like then. That is what I wish for now. I wish that buildings and iPads were never invented. But of course, it is really cool and "helpful". But if we were still farming and gathering our own food then we'd be getting more excersize and healthier foods, and most things we take pills for, we wouldn't have to worry about.

There was a point in history when things were better, in my mind. Personally, my favourite point in history was sort of in between the hunting-gathering stage and the stage in which hominids discovered they could dig up a plant and move it, and use seeds to grow more, and to basically farm by containing animals. Its basically when humans first discovered how to harness nature so they didn't have to "hunt and gather". I would say right in there was where it was at, because at that point humans were eating a lot more healthier and it was slightly easier to have some resources gathered, but still with the daily struggle of harvesting or milking cows or hunting.

I find history really fascinating, and as I previously said, I put it into my philosophy a LOT.

So basically my point is, next time you have back pain, consider yoga, a massage or meditation before you pop a pill. Over time if you keep doing something like yoga the pain will go away. Its just something you have to PERSONALLY WORK AT. Taking a pill may give you a quick fix, but eventually your immune system may start building up an immunity to those pills and they won't even work. Unlike yoga, you don't "build up an immunity" you just get more flexible, more strong and healthier.

Although, I will say for things such as CANCER, GIVING BIRTH, GETTING A KIDNEY STONE REMOVEd, OF COURSE USE MEDICINE! That is better for that. Although, when you have something like cancer, of course you should take treatment if you wish, but also if you just do some meditation and stress-relieving activities, it will help a LOT psychologically throughout the entire process. If you are psychologically well then you have more of a reason to live, WHICH I believe if you use your psyche enough that it will eventually help you biologically.

And people who know me well, know that I am "afraid" of medication. Its really not a HUGE fear of any kind... but I just really hate it. When I give birth I will probably get drugged up (once I get pregnant that is). The form of medication I take is acetaminophen (tylenol, or advil) AND THE ONLY TIME I TAKE IT is when I have REALLY BAD period cramps. Which I honestly cannot do much about holistically besides massage and stretching which doesn't work for a long period of time. Sometimes I use heat patches (because I get cramps in my lower back) I haven't taken acetaminophen in probably at least 4 months though. I probably only do a few times a year.

So yeah, that is my opinion. Take it or leave it :)

I just wanted to talk about a few things about this blog.

1. It is not a daily blog. The last time I did a daily blog I would try to force myself to come up with really random things and my blogs would end up boring. Or I would force myself to write a blog on a crappy day and end up regretting what I posted. I will post when I feel like it, and I will always put on twitter when I posted so you don't have to check randomly also so maybe I can get some new blog viewers :)

2. It is called "Just keep swimming" because its from Finding Nemo which is one of my favourite Disney movies and because it basically means "When life gets you down, just keep swimming" so just keep going and never stop.

3. The link is called "dadcanihavesomecrackerjacks" because as a kid my dad and I might go to the corner store called the "Groceteria" and they would have cracker jacks, which are these:
http://www.google.ca/imgres?q=cracker+jacks&um=1&hl=en&client=safari&sa=N&rls=en&biw=1280&bih=566&tbm=isch&tbnid=cguMq7OMoRXtOM:&imgrefurl=http://newsanvil.wordpress.com/2011/10/04/obama-in-trouble-for-eating-cracker-jacks/&docid=WnLr3pjpPV4VGM&imgurl=http://newsanvil.files.wordpress.com/2011/10/cracker-jacks.jpg&w=305&h=381&ei=JCb6ToidFoXb0QGdyL2VDA&zoom=1&iact=hc&vpx=630&vpy=174&dur=287&hovh=251&hovw=201&tx=86&ty=125&sig=102134388450550080878&page=1&tbnh=168&tbnw=134&start=0&ndsp=13&ved=1t:429,r:3,s:0

and I always loved them and I would always ask him to get them for me :) Then I would take them home and share them. USually I would eat the popcorn then give my dad the peanuts in the bag because I didn't like the peanuts.

Things To Do

I am feeling inspired right now.

This is early, but I am going to make a list of goals I would like to complete. I guess in terms of "new years resolutions" but just in general, these are things I would like to accomplish in 2012.


1. I am GOING to get a second job I enjoy. Of course I want it to happen RIGHT away, but it may not. I have a list of maybe 5 or 6 places I would like to apply. I need the money for certain things (mostly in relation to the rest of my goals).

2. I am GOING to start doing yoga, stretching and becoming flexible. I have always wanted to be flexible and it is simply really hard to start off and be committed, because it is hard at first. I want to do yoga to establish a lot of this flexibility. Whether it is a class, or youtube videos. I might do youtube videos for the first few months and maybe in the summer join a yoga class.

3. I am GOING to get a car. I want a car to travel, to take me to the gym, and wherever my heart may desire. To do this I have to get my G2 first and get enough money for one. I would like to accomplish this goal before the end of summer, preferably by the end of July.

4. I am GOING to study hard. I have been studying a lot more recently. If you know me, you know I value my grades. I would really like to move my average up to above 90%. It WAS a 88%. I think that now it has gone down. But next semester I have a few more harder courses (it is actually a BEAUTIFUL semester for me) and I am going to study hard. I can put aside facebook and television for my future.


These are my main goals. They aren't even really "goals" they are more like a "to do" list.

Now I challenge you to make a list of things you are going to accomplish next year, because you want to and you are going to.









***Bonus

I am making a "goal to do list" for the next two weeks of holidays.

1. Finish all of my study notes for all of my classes for exams. I remember last year I wanted to do this and once I got off of holidays I hadn't done it and thought "Oh Sarah, you are so stupid!" So I am going to make my life easier by creating all of my study notes within the next two weeks.

2. Take photos. This may sound weird, but even though I am not very interested in "photography" I do like art, and I want to take my moms good camera and just go for a walk and take photos of things. You may or may not see them on facebook.

3. RELAX. Sometimes I need to remember to just take a break (I don't mean watch TV and go on facebook, because thats not really a break) I just mean stop stressing and focus on the positive things.

Quiet.

"Sarah, you are so quiet!"
"Why are you quiet?"
"You should talk more."

These are all things I have heard before.

So here I am saying, My name is Sarah and I am quiet. I don't talk a lot.

To answer the people that ask "Why?" I honestly have no idea. I know a lot about who I am and feel like I know myself well, but I have tried to think of all of the possible reasons, there is nothing really from my childhood that could've affected me in a major way, I have never really been told to be quiet. Maybe I am just born quiet, if that is possible.

I tend to observe more. I like to watch conversation happen and tend to form opinions in my head and just not voice them.

The only thing is that being quiet is something that is really hard to be. When you are at a job, you need to be social, at school, you need to be social. I wouldn't consider myself "unsocial" but I know that many do.

I got screwed out of a huge opportunity this year and it was basically because I am too quiet. I wasn't chosen because I am "quiet".

I guess its worse to be quiet then sleeping with every boy in the school. Its worse to be quiet then loud. Its better to voice your opinion and be heckled, then not talk at all.

I have a teacher this semester that has talked to me twice about me being quiet. Its not like she pulled me aside and talked to me about it, but in the two private conversations we have had she has brought it up. I honestly don't know what to say. I feel like this teacher tries to analyze me a lot though, just trying to figure me out. I feel like she knows more about me then any other teacher. But I also feel like she knows the least and is completely clueless.

I used to be self-conscious--- a lot. Which may have been where my "quietness" originated from. But now I am super independent. Its not that I won't talk, its just I usually don't have something to say. If I have to talk, I will. But if it is unnecessary, I just don't.

If I really had to try to trace back my quietness to a certain point in time. It would either be me transitioning from my old hometown to my new town, or from Harry J to Destinations. Those two school switches really took a toll on me. I had to make new friends, where as in Lyndhurst I was friends with people easier, although it may have simply been because I was still a kid.

Honestly, I kind of hope that teacher brings it up again and we have a long talk about it. Maybe she can help me get over it, or maybe has some explanation I have never thought of. I feel somewhat comfortable, and yet awkward with this teacher but I just want to talk to her about stuff. I feel like she would understand.

But really, what is so bad about being quiet?

Although, as I said, I can talk, I can walk up to somebody and ask a question, but a lot of times, I simply like to figure things out on my own too. For example, if I am at a store and I am looking for something, I won't look for a person to tell me, I will look for that thing and if it takes me too long, then I ask.

Screw this.

If somebody asks me "Why are you so quiet?" I will just say "Its a life style choice." or "Thats the way I roll"

I am an anticonformist about the social norms of raising children.

So. I am going to start blogging again, occasionally. Not often.

I am going to share personal outlooks on this blog.

Today I am going to talk about children.

So, if you are reading this, you most likely know that I helped out with the Staff Kids Christmas Party. It was amazing! I helped a lot of kids make crafts and messes, cards, glue piles, ornaments, bracelets and necklaces. I just loved watching the kids too! Some of the teachers were just having the most fun with them. They were picking them up above their heads and giving them kisses. Then santa came and the kids were adorable! One of the girls was being dragged by her mom to see santa, and once they FINALLY got her on his lap, she gave him the BIGGEST HUG! I also helped with the parachute (You know those games with the colourful parachute and you bounce the balls around on top, and go under it?).

That was so amazing! It felt so good to do as well. So many teachers came up to us and thanked us and said it was amazing! I still wish I could've organized it though, I didn't get chosen to be one of the two organizers. And to be honest, I cried about it off and on for about 4 hours. I am generally used to getting what I want, emotionally, and I didn't get this and I was hurt.

But it just felt so good! Then one of the kids put the necklace she made around her Dad's neck and it was so cute!.

Later that day I was at my cousin's house helping to set up for her birthday, and I stayed from 3-8 for her actual birthday, but I was there at about 1:30. It was her, two of her friends (that are twins, and kids of one of the teachers) and another girl.

I was kinda just sitting back for a bit observing them play and being kinda bored. But then I got involved. Like when they were playing pin the tail on the donkey I stood infront of the donkey when one girl was blindfolded. I played hide and seek with them later.

But the most amazing (and tragic) thing that happened was when my cousin was crying because some paint got spilled on a carpet and her and her dad were having the BIGGEST Misunderstanding. I was sitting at the back of the room, where the three kids and marija could see me but not her dad that was yelling at her. The one little girl that I disliked was on HIS side and the twins were being honest. I just felt like standing up and explaining everything to them and being like OKAY UNCLE this is how you are wrong and Marija, this is how you are wrong, now stfu and play.

But what I ended up doing was I was sitting in the chair, and Marija was balling her eyes out and I sorta started crying, because she was, but she kept looking over at me while crying on the floor and I would smile at her (and thats why I was crying, because I was trying to help her and it was really sad) but eventually I stood up and said, "Marija, come with me" and shes like "Im going to my room" so we went to her room together, and then I just let her talk and I explained to her that I understood what was going on, and I completely understand how she feels, and then I hugged her and I was bawling my eyes out at that point, and then she was like "Why are you crying?" and I was like "Because you are, and it hurts to see you hurt" and she told me she loves me and we hugged. Then my mom came in and talked to her. And her dad came in and they got in a fight, and my mom talked to her and she calmed down, then her dad and her went and talked in another room, and she came out happy.

The rest of the night was fun though!

Right before I left the twins gave me a hug and were like "no! don't go! Your fun!". That was so sweet!

Anyways. My overall point of this blog was just to sum up my day which turned into a story, and say how much I love kids.

But today reminded me exactly why I want to have 3-5 kids. My family studies teacher was talking to us about why we do or don't want to have kids, and I was like "I really don't know.". Well I know again. I want to have a family. Why? I want to create and be with people that I can support and be supported by and share with and know that no matter what we'll always be there for eachother. Seeing the bad and good of kids today gave me that reality that I have been seeking for about a week.

I think I might look for somewhere I can volunteer with kids at. I really do like kids. I like helping them with crafts, and helping them with their problems and teaching them lessons of life.

The only 2 things I HATE about today were:
1. The amount of trash-talk marija and her friends had to say about random people at their school.
2. How much stereotyping there is within the gender of children. I.e.: Girls get dolls and like pink, and boys get trucks and blocks.

I am not into that, I am going to raise my boys and girls and give them equal amount of girl and boy toys, and dress them in fairly generic outfits (not like putting a boy in a dress or a girl in a truck shirt, just generic) and then when they are older, (maybe 3-5) let them choose what clothes they want to wear, and what toys they prefer. So that way if a boy wants to play dolls he can. And if my girl wants to wear overalls with trains on them, she can go right ahead.

I am mostly girly, but there is a little bit of man in me ;). Especially as a kid. I am not sure what happened, but as a kid I used to play in the trees and gardens and play spies, catch bugs, ride my bike. I always wanted a marble track set and a sandbox as a kid (which are fairly generic, but slightly more boyish), I used to fight with boys and pin them to the ground. But then again, I also liked wearing dresses and dressing nicely and girly, wearing jewelry, playing with barbies and having a LOT of stuffed animals.

This is just a personal choice of mine, I am an ANTICONFORMIST.

Google it. I am one. More then you know.

I'm back baby.