#29 30 Day Writing Challenge- 5 Weird Things I like

This prompt is really hard. I do more weird things than I have weird things.

5 Weird Things I like:

1. I feel like I've mentioned this in another blog a long time ago, but I have this blanket that I've had literally since I was born (it was in my crib). It's nothing too special, it has worn down, quite a bit, but I still sleep with it, most nights. Not because it is a security blanket or I miss my childhood, but because it makes a great pillow. The material it is made out of makes it easy for my to put it into a ball to use as a pillow. It's weird, but I like it.

2. Going for walks, alone, at night. It seems like the creepiest thing to go for lonely walks by yourself at night... it is... but I like it. I just like to spend time thinking while going for a walk because it clears my head, but I like the dark because... well it is the dark. Nobody can see me. So I like that.

3. I like getting my hair played with. I feel like this isn't overly weird, as a lot of people like getting their hair played with. It's relaxing. I guess it's just weird because it can be awkward and it's not really socially acceptable to do in public.

4. Tarot. I don't commit to the belief in being able to tell the future, but I do like to play with tarot cards. It's fun to play with them, and just to think about the future, even if it's not accurate.

5. Eating icecream or yogurt with an orange peeler thing. We have these orange peelers that are somewhat sharp on one end, but it's just like a long stick with a bit of an edge on the horizontal side. When I am at home eating yogurt or ice cream, I use that side to scrape it and then eat it. I think it slows down the eating process so I can enjoy it more. Either way, it's more fun.

I'm a pretty weird person though. I used to be more "random" weird. But now I'm just awkward weird. It's all good.

What weird things do you like, or own?

#30 30 Day Writing Challenge- One Thing I am Excited For

I feel like this is getting repetitive, but one thing I am excited for is starting University next year.

I am attending Nipissing University for a double major in Philosophy and either Political Science or Psychology. I am hopefully going to be on the varsity cross country team. I am also moving into residence, which depending which building I am in, I will either have 5 or 3 other "roommates". Everyone has their own room, you share 1 kitchen, 2 bathrooms, 1 living area. I want to be in the one with 5 roommates because the bedrooms are slightly larger and it is in a townhouse, so it is a larger living space. But I wouldn't mind being in the apartment style ones because that way I don't have to leave the building to do my laundry. I don't find out until mid-August who my roommates are, and where I am staying.

I am the most excited to learn new things, since I am a learning nerd. Secondly, I am excited to meet new people. I have been around almost all of the same people for the past 6 years. I am looking forward to finding new friends with similar interests.

Something weird/funny I was thinking about... I was talking to one of my teachers at graduation and she said that she had a roommate in her first year of university who was really crazy/weird but she said it was fun for the most part, and makes for a good story. I then wondered "Will I be the crazy one?". I might be. I have a weird "living-style". I eat at weird times, wear weird things around the house. I'm sure I'll adjust a tad for university, but still, I am a pretty weird person that does weird things.

So will I be the weird roommate? Maybe. Either that or I'll be the most sane roommate. There is no in-between. Either I am the insane one or the sane one.

#28 30 Day Writing Challenge- A Place I'd like to Visit/Move To

I have recently established an obsession with all of the Scandinavian countries, which are Denmark, Norway, Sweden and also Finland. Sometimes Iceland is considered Scandinavian.

I really love how these countries are all run. They all have something really good going for them, whether it is their education system, jail system and religion. The values in these countries are very close to my own.

Take a look at this blog to learn a little more.

But these countries are really nice, in my opinion. I want to travel to them, at least. If I had to move to another country other than Canada or the United States, I would pick one of those countries. The reason why I'd choose the US over them is just because their culture is closer to Canada's, and I already know the language. I'd have to learn another language to move to one of those countries.

Here are a few links to some amazing pictures/videos of these places:
- Sweden
- Norway
- Denmark
- Finland

Anyways. These are some amazing places.

In addition to the Scandinavian countries, I would really like to travel all around Canada and the US. Even though I did state earlier that they are similar, there are some differences.
In Canada I really want to visit
-Newfoundland
-Alberta
-British Columbia
-Yukon
In the US I want to go to:
-Pennsylvania
-New York
-California
-Florida
-Idaho.

A few other countries I want to visit are:
- Greece
- Spain
- Italy
- The entire UK
- Germany
- Pretty much all around the Mediterranean

#27 30 Day Writing Challenge- A Quote I try to Live By

I am obsessed with quotes.

Even though quotes are just excerpts of a bigger idea, list, speech, book, etc., reading a bunch of smaller quotes somewhat helps to understand the bigger picture of things.

My blog even has a Quotes Page! It has 3 sections, 1 is things I have written, another is general quotes and the last are quotes by Ralph Waldo Emerson.

One of my favourite authors/writers is Ralph Waldo Emerson. He is absolutely amazing. If I believed in reincarnation, I would say I was probably him in a past life. A lot of our ideas and philosophies are really close. Not the same, but close.

Anyways, my favourite quote that I "try to live by" is:

 "Speak what you think now in hard words and tomorrow speak what tomorrow thinks in hard words again, though it contradict everything you said today"

 This is from Emerson's essay "Self-Reliance" which is the best essay, ever written.

I plan to get it tattooed on my right forearm, once I am of legal age to get tattoos.

This quote means a lot to me. When I first read it, I feel absolutely in love with it.

I think it is important to feel confident in what you say, and you should also be fine with changing your mind. That's basically what this quote means to me, is that you should say whatever you want, and if you change your mind completely the next day, voice your opinion. It's okay to change your mind. It's okay to say what you want.

I have changed my mind about philosophies, a lot. Recently I have had less interest in anarchy. There was a time when I described myself as an anarchist. Now, not so much. I still think anarchy is really fascinating, but I've sort of stopped.

I feel like you could pull up so many different things I have said from the past, even from blog posts not too long ago, and I have changed my mind about something I have said.

A second quote that I also value a lot, I had the same reaction to. I just felt so good and when I read it, I fell absolutely in love with it, as well. It is by Mark Twain, who I also love.

"Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to reform"

This quote can also be known as "Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect" which is a misquote, that was probably created to help define the word "reform". Essentially this quote means that if your idea is the same as everyone else, you should stop and think about why, and make sure you are not conforming to the majority, just because it is the majority.

I think it is fine to go along with the majority, as long as you know why and that is what you believe.

I considered getting this as a tattoo, but I am not 100% sure on it yet. I still love this quote, too. I represents my skeptical and non-conformist self. 

Anyways. I hope you found these quotes as inspiring as I do! 

Do you have any quotes you try to live by?

#26 30 Day Writing Challenge- Things I like and Dislike About Myself

I want to start off by saying that people shouldn't be afraid to dislike things about themselves. So many times people tell other people to just focus on the positive.

Something I have learned is that if you always focus on the positive, change doesn't happen. This goes for life, mostly. If you are focusing on the positive things in your life that are going right for you, that is great, optimism is great! But change needs to happen. Change usually comes with improvement from negative things in your life.

So the negative things about yourself won't change unless you focus on them.

There's just some food for thought for all optimists out there.


Anyways. List time!


Things I like about myself:
- I like that I am somewhat funny and have a good sense of humor, in my opinion
- I like my hair
- I like my eyes
- I like that I have an array of subjects I love to learn and think about
- I like that I can rely on myself for 99% of the things I need to do
- I like that I am always sure of myself
- I like that I am intelligent (cocky, but who cares?)
- I like my style
- I like that I can be both kind and cold to people
- I like that I love to learn
- I like that I have muscles
- I like that I like to run
- I like that I am determined
- I like that once I feel confident in my skin that I can be crazy and weird
- I like that I can be a hard-ass without emotion, yet also the most emotional person ever
- I like that I can be creative
- I like that I am driven and ambitious


Things I don't like about myself:
- I don't like that I am terrible with money
- I don't like that I am quiet
- I don't like my bra size
- I don't like my skin tone
- I don't like my acne/breakouts
- I don't like that I have trouble opening up with my favourite people
- I don't like how messy I can get
- I don't like how stressed out I can get
- I don't like that my confidence isn't as high as I want it to be
- I don't like how much time I waste
- I don't like that I can't sing well
- I don't like that I don't read often
- I don't like that when I really want something, although I get extremely determined to get it, I let reality get in the way and stop me

Weird Category- Things that I Love/Hate about myself:
- That I can be awkward, it can be funny at times, but other times it's just embarrassing
- That I watch a lot of TV, it takes away a bit of time, but I love it so much
- That I put pressure on myself, it can be stressful yet also can drive me to do well



On a separate note, I realized something the other day. People constantly think I am a "perfectionist" and I know I am not. What I did realize is that I have a fear of not being successful, which is why I think people think I am a perfectionist. I am not a perfectionist because I realize perfection is impossible. I knew I only needed a 75% on my law exam to get a 90% in the course (having a 94% going into the exam). I studied for a total of 2 hours... MAYBE the day before. I got an 87% on the exam, but I mostly bullshitted it. I am not a perfectionist. I do want to be successful though. The thought of not being successful, especially career-wise, scares me a little.

I guess that is another aspect I both love and hate about myself, because it stresses me out, but it also pushes me to try harder to reach my goals. 

Prom 2013!

This was my outfit for prom!

My dress was $145 and I got it from a store called "Agent 99" in Kingston, Ontario 

My shoes (white on the left) were $80 and from le chateau

My clutch (on right, hard plastic) was $40 from le chateau

I did my own nails for prom, I used revlon's pearl colour and a sparkly, black and white stripes to make 3 stripes. (On left) 

Here are some more photos:

I had a lot of fun! The best parts were the candy bar, the photobooth (free photos for 3 hours!), the food and just goofing around taking photos!

I didn't get my hair, nails or makeup done. I didn't want to make a big fuss over prom because that just makes it stressful. 

It was a great way to end the school year... Grad on Thursday!

#25 30 Day Writing Challenge - Something I am worrying about

I think the biggest thing I am worried about right now is... well there are a few things. There isn't just one big thing.

Viola! A list:

- My driving test- I am not saying exactly when, but I am going for my full G licence in July. I really don't want to have to retake it. I have to pay more money. I desperately want my G, because I will hopefully be getting a car in August. I can drive with my G2 still, but I want my full license!

- Final Marks- I might be getting them today... I need my writers craft and law marks still. Exam review is today, and I hope they have my final grades. If not, I can do the math... so I should know for the most part, at least. I am worried I won't do well on the law exam!

- Moving in and attending university- I am going to Nipissing University in the fall! I am nervous to meet new people. I am worried it won't go well. I'm sure it will, but you never know.

-Graduation is on Thursday- I am worried I won't win a grad award. It is fine if I don't, but I think it would be nice, of course. I am nervous for grad and saying goodbye to everyone.

All of these things happening are ringing a few bells with me. I remember in Family Studies last year, we were talking about "what makes an adult", and all of those things, along with many more criteria, for example, being 18, drinking alcohol, owning a house, car, kids, married, are all things we came up with that all lead to being an adult. So am I an adult? SWEET. TIME TO GO BE MATURE AND STUFF!

Kidding.

Anyways, my prom was yesterday! Look forward to a blog post sometime today talking about prom w/ pictures! I will do it once I get on my iPad.

#24 30 Day Writing Challenge- 5 Words/ Phrases that make me laugh

I am glad I have this prompt for the writing challenge today! I am in a good mood. My prom is tonight!

I think I am going to do 5 quotes from 5 of my favourite comedic actors. They might not be completely hilarious... but they will be good. I will also include funny photos of them.

Steve Carell “Nothing to me feels as good as laughing incredibly hard.” Tina Fey “Let’s admit it, yellow hair does have magic powers. You could put a blond wig on a hot-water heater and some dude would try to fuck it.” Amy Poehler (on the right, with Tina Fey) "Always remember your kid's name. Always remember where you put your kid. Don't let your kid drive until their feet can reach the pedals. Use the right size diapers... for yourself. And, when in doubt, make funny faces." Rachel Dratch "I have no wisdom to share on dating."

Aubrey Plaza

 "I get really weird when I'm not working. I have to keep working." 

Steve Carell 

“Nothing to me feels as good as laughing incredibly hard.”

Tina Fey

“Let’s admit it, yellow hair does have magic powers. You could put a blond wig on a hot-water heater and some dude would try to fuck it.”

Amy Poehler 

(on the right, with Tina Fey)

"Always remember your kid's name. Always remember where you put your kid. Don't let your kid drive until their feet can reach the pedals. Use the right size diapers... for yourself. And, when in doubt, make funny faces."

Rachel Dratch

"I have no wisdom to share on dating."

#21-23 30 Day Writing Challenge

I got lazy. I admit. I messed up for the second time on the writing challenge. Boo.

I blogged yesterday, outside of the writing challenge, so at least that is good!

Before I get started, I just want to say I updated my quotes page!

#21- How you Hope your Future will be like

I want to be a politician and go into education as well.

I've just been saying education and teacher for the past little bit... but I do want to get into politics. The other day someone in my class was going a presentation and then told us to write down the first thing that popped into our heads that would make us happy.

The first thing that popped into my head was to become an MPP and be the Minister of Education.

I hope I have a family. It isn't the end of the world if I don't get married, although I hope I do. I might have kids even if I don't get married. If I am not busy, career wise, and not married by 30 or in a relationship, I've thought I would have a kid, by myself.

I hope I have enough money and I am not in debt. Debt scares me so much.

#22- Your Academics

I get decent grades. I always have. I don't work overly hard, I did in grade 11, though. I wouldn't call myself smart or a genius. I just do the work with moderate effort and hand it in. Tests I have more issues with because that means that I have to memorize things, which I am not good at.

I get the best grades on essays. In fact, in almost all of my grade 12 courses, I have gotten 100% on one or more essays. I have in exercise science, peer tutoring, law, writer's craft, family studies and philosophy. I haven't in history or english.

This semester (my last semester of high school) I don't know all of my grades yet. At midterms I had a 94% in Law, 94% in Peer tutoring and a 92% in Writers Craft. I know my final grade in peer tutoring was a 96%, but I won't find out for a week or so what my other final grades are. I had a 94% going into my Law exam and a 90% going into my writer's craft exam.

My worst mark ever in high school was a 67%, which was in grade 11 math. My best grade was peer tutoring. My average in grade 12 is around 90%, but I won't know for sure until I get my other 2 grades.

#23 - Something that you Miss

Something that I miss... well high school I am going to miss. I miss my Dad. What should I talk about?

I am going to specifically miss 9 of the courses I took in high school. Especially 4 of them.
- Peer tutoring Careers + Civics (GPP30) which I took in grade 10
- Peer tutoring Foods (IDC4U) which I just finished
- Triology, which I took in grade 10
- Individuals and Families in a Diverse Society which I took in grade 11
- Grade 10 history
- Grade 11 history
- Grade 12 Canadian History
- Grade 12 Classical Civilizations
- Philosophy, which I took online

I am going to miss some of the people. But the people I am going to miss the most, are my friends, so of course we are going to keep in contact when we all move away from each other.

I am going to miss cross country. I only did it in grade 12, but I made a bunch of new friends there. Two of them I will be coming back to visit, if I do come back to visit the school, next year.

There are definitely a few teachers I will be coming back to harass if I visit the school.



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In other news, my prom is TOMORROW, Monday, June 24th! I might post some pics on Tuesday's blog post, or do a separate blog post just on that.

My blog should be "back to normal" in July, which is when I'll be writing more posts that aren't completely about myself, which is sort of what this writing challenge is.

I've been thinking a lot about politics lately. I might blog about Justin Trudeau, Why I want to go into politics, my stance on democracy... I am excited. My brain is bubbling. Is that an expression? Now it is.

Why did man create god?

I am briefly straying from my 30 day writing challenge. I will do the 21st-23rd, tomorrow. 

I need to talk about something that has been on my mind (again).

That would be religion.

Or, rather, theism, as I have established before that religion is just a societal group, that happens to share an identical view on god. 

I am very interested in why people believe in god. There are so many reasons that are simple and some more complex: 

- That is what people were taught and they choose to believe it

- Don't want to be outcasts from society/ just following social norms

- It seems logical to them somehow

- They are optimistic about heaven or believe it exists so they believe in god just in case it does exist

More complex ideas I've talked about before are like

- People use the concept of god to rid themselves about what they feel bad about doing (sort of like apologizing without actually apologizing to the person you've hurt)

- People are drawn to the concept because they like this idea of hope, after a hard time in their life

- people think society will fall apart and act immorally without religion 

People don't just believe in god. There is a reason. Even like the statement "people don't just believe in iPads". Either they believe in them because they have one, have seen one, are gullible, and they trust their senses to be honest to their minds. 

Someone who says "I just believe in god because he exists" has to have a reason. Whether it was the way they were raised, they are getting false hope psychologically... Who knows.

Today I've furthered my thinking... Beyond "why do people believe in god?" I wonder "why and when did people create god?"

Obviously a high percentage of people are theists, for reasons I have just discussed... But I want to know why and when people created this idea of a superior being.

I read an article about a study ill link to here later if I remember, about how people are always dependent on another, so creating a god can relieve this need of dependency on something.

I want to know the first mind who thought up the idea of a god.

I've always imagined it to be some authority figure like a king or something, who gained his authority by lying and saying a man, the creator, is speaking to him, and therefore this man and now king may rule. There is no proof of that, I just think that could be a theory. It would make a goods historical-fiction novel, actually.

I don't know. I'm going to keep on pondering.

Why do you think man created god?

#20 30 Day Writing Challenge - My fears

FEARS. BOO!

1. Spiders and bugs in general. Pretty much anything smaller than my finger with legs creeps the fuck out of me. Even some butterflies do. Not all. Some.

2. I have a fear of breaking or injuring any part of my body, especially my legs.

3. I fear being in a tiny space for too long where I can't get out. Like if I am locked in a locker or a small room, maybe the size of 2-3 bathroom stalls or smaller. Sometimes I'll be in a cardboard box, just closed in, and I start to panic suddenly.

4. Fear of failing grades, or not being successful.

That's pretty much it. I mean, I guess fears like being shot, getting blood thrown at you, vampires, monsters, etc., are pretty much widespread and don't need to be mentioned.

I don't really have any weird fears that aren't realistic.

I used to have a fear of heights and falling, but I decided to face my fear and jump off of this really high thing, into the water, and now I am over it.

#19 30 Day Writing Challenge- 5 Items I lust over + 99 Questions nobody asks!

5 Items I "Lust" over:

5. TELEVISION SHOWS! Gosh. I love Comedy shows so much! 30 Rock, Parks and Rec, the office, community. I want to meet the casts of these shows so badly.

4. Clothes in general. I love clothes so much! I have so many! If I could have a shopping spree for any three places to get clothes it would be H&M, Forever 21 and Winners.

3. iPad. I want an iPad! They're fun to play around with. My mom has one.

2. Laptop. I need a new laptop. I have one, but it enjoys overheating a lot, so a new one would be great for university.

1. A car. I need a car. I want a car. Soon, I'll be getting a car. I have my eyes on the honda civic and volkswagen jetta. I'm not overly picky. Just something nice. A good car.

An addition to my regular 30 day writing challenge:

This is a 99 Questions tag I found on youtube that I decided to use in my blog.

1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? My closet is missing its door, so open.
2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? Rarely, almost never.
3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? Tucked in until they untuck themselves then I'm too lazy to tuck them back in.
4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before? Nope
5:Do you like to use post-it notes? Sure
6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? Nope. If I use it I cut it out
7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? Bees, I could probably outrun them
8:Do you have freckles? I used to, but not anymore
9:Do you always smile for pictures? Usually
10:What is your biggest pet peeve? Read this
11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk? Nope
12:Have you ever peed in the woods? Maybe once as a kid
13:What about pooped in the woods? I don't think so
14:Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? On occasion
15:Do you chew your pens and pencils? Subconsciously, sometimes.
16:How many people have you slept with this week? More than usual! A whole 0
17:What size is your bed? twin. ick.
18:What is your Song of the week? People Like Us- Kelly Clarkson
19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink? yes
20:Do you still watch cartoons? Not often
21:Whats your least favorite movie? Napoleon Dynamite is sticking out to me... it wasn't bad, it was just boring.
22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? A nearby park, perhaps.
23:What do you drink with dinner? Water or nothing
24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in? Plum sauce
25:What is your favorite food? FRUIT! Frozen fruit. Mmm. FROZEN YOGURT WITH FRUIT AHH. Sorry.
26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love? Evan Almighty, Blades of Glory, Bridesmaids, Freedom Writers Diary, Chloe
27:Last person you kissed/kissed you? haha let's not go there :) Aren't these supposed to be questions nobody ever asks?
28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout? I did sparks
29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? Not nude, I'd do underwear. 
30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? a few days ago
31:Can you change the oil on a car? Nope.
32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket? Nope
33:Ever ran out of gas? Not yet
34:Favorite kind of sandwich? GRILLED CHEESE COUNTS
35:Best thing to eat for breakfast? Pancakes as a treat, but in general, Kashi cereal, mmm
36:What is your usual bedtime? Anywhere between 10pm-12pm. 
37:Are you lazy? Very
38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? Most years I was a Devil. I was Barbie once, a ladybug, lion
39:What is your Chinese astrological sign? The pig/hog
40:How many languages can you speak? 1
41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions? My seventeen subscription, but it's going to run out soon and I am not renewing it
42:Which are better legos or lincoln logs? legos!
43:Are you stubborn? YES
44:Who is better...Leno or Letterman? Letterman!
45:Ever watch soap operas? Used to watch coronation street, not anymore.
46:Are you afraid of heights? Used to be
47:Do you sing in the car? All the time
48:Do you sing in the shower? When my mom isn't home
49:Do you dance in the car? Not if I'm driving! haha
50:Ever used a gun? Water gun ;). 
51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? Graduation photos
52:Do you think musicals are cheesy? Yes.
53:Is Christmas stressful? Nope.
54:Ever eat a pierogi? YESSS
55:Favorite type of fruit pie? Blueberry mmm
56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Cake decorator, doctor, vet, astronaut 
57:Do you believe in ghosts? I'm on the fence. I am leaning more towards yes, but I am not fully committing
58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? All of the time
59:Take a vitamin daily? Nope
60:Wear slippers? On occasion
61:Wear a bath robe? No
62:What do you wear to bed? Pajamas? haha, usually pj pants or shorts and then an old t-shirt
63:First concert? JONAS BROTHERS
64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Wal-Mart and Target
65:Nike or Adidas? BOTH!!! If I had to choose, Adidas, but I love both so much
66:Cheetos Or Fritos? Cheetos
67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts!
68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? Nope
69:Ever take dance lessons? Yep! 
70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? I've always imagined a lawyer. But obviously I don't know.
71:Can you curl your tongue? Yes
72:Ever won a spelling bee? 4th place? ;)
73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Yes!
74:Own any record albums? records? no.
75:Own a record player? My mom does
76:Regularly burn incense? Nope
77:Ever been in love? Yep
78:Who would you like to see in concert? Ke$ha would probably be fun
79:What was the last concert you saw? Oh god. emily osment? I'm not a big concert goer.
80:Hot tea or cold tea? Cold
81:Tea or coffee? Coffee
82:Sugar or snickerdoodles? Sugar
83:Can you swim well? Averagely I suppose
84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Yes.
85:Are you patient? Nope
86:DJ or band, at a wedding? DJ
87:Ever won a contest? I think so. Yes.
88:Ever have plastic surgery? Nope
89:Which are better black or green olives? Hate both. Green if I have to pick
90:Can you knit or crochet? I can knit, I haven't in a while. I can't cast on, but I still remember how to knit
91:Best room for a fireplace? Living room
92:Do you want to get married? Maybe, probably.
93:If married, how long have you been married? im not.
94:Who was your HS crush? I've had a couple, but no massive ones. I can't think of just one person to put. 
95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? I have before, but I don't as a rule.
96:Do you have kids? No
97:Do you want kids? Yes
98:Whats your favorite color? Black... if it has to be a colour, than red.
99:Do you miss anyone right now? Yep.

#18 30 Day Writing Challenge- A Problem I've had

A problem I've had... hmm. This is another hard topic. Most of the major problems I've had I've discussed on my blog before. I suppose I'll dig one up to the surface again.

A problem I've had: being confident.

It took me forever to realize in high school that there is a difference and a similarity between confidence and being social.

I am quiet, awkward, shy and don't like socializing. But I soon realized I can't go through high school like that, so I had to break that shield of anxiety, which I have for the most part. I remember when it was a success for me to raise my hand in class. Now I joke around with my teachers, embarrass myself in peer tutoring on purpose, and instead of being the person that's like "Go ask the person at the desk for paper for me, I don't want to" people ask me to do that. Things have changed.

I had this perspective that confidence and being social are two different things. Which is true. You can be social but not confident and confident but not social. This is sort of where I am at. When you are confident and not social, you come across as rude. The older and more mature I've gotten, the ruder I appear.

So now this is my problem. I don't like socializing. I don't like having to talk to people and have a "casual conversation" because honestly, I recognize these little conversations of pleasantries as pointless, unless I want to have a relationship with that person. Well this is how connections are made, you have relationships with more people, and you engage in these pointless conversations.

I'm going to need to network with professors and people I meet in politics, which means I have to have these conversations.

So this is another problem I am currently having.

If I want to go into politics, I am going to have to face this. I don't have to be the most social person I know, but it would help a lot to be more social. So in university I am planning on doing varsity track and field. I might join 2 clubs : the philosophy society and possibly the psychology society.

Now I think of another problem I'm having! I don't know what my second major is going to be! I think.

I want to take Philosophy and double major with something else. It constantly switches between Psychology, Sociology and Political Science. I don't think I will decide until first year is over, because then I will know more about all of these subjects. I am taking all 4 of those subjects in first year, along with 1 history course, academic writing and geology (I have to have science credit). I want to go into politics, which is why political science is a good idea, but psychology is more interesting to me. Sociology is more relevant to the type of ideas I think about. But I also want to be a teacher. Teachables don't matter as much as people think they do, but I can see me teaching law, I can also see me teaching sociology/psychology. I don't know. I won't consider this for a while.

At the moment I'm leaning towards psychology and political science. AHH STOP THINKING ABOUT IT, ME! It's literally driving me nuts.

Okay. Well so those are an array of problems. The only "solved" one is being more confident. I'm still not VERY confident, and that is definitely not an accurate adjective to describe me as, but I can succeed in society with the level of confidence I have achieved. I'm still chiseling away at it, trying to improve it. 

#17 30 Day Writing Challenge - Something that I'm Proud of

This is honestly the hardest topic I have gotten for the writing challenge, so far. What am I proud of?

I guess it's not that hard. The first thing that came to my mind was running. But I decided I didn't want to brag. But I am coming up short on ideas, so I guess I will go with that.

I have run 2 half marathons, 1 30k and I won an award for cross country at school. I haven't even been running for 2 years, yet. I started in November 2011, and then I just started training.

I am really proud of what I have accomplished. Self pride. It's not really that braggy/selfish, right? I don't care.

But I guess that is something I am the most proud of.

Recently my running stamina has decreased. I haven't run over 16km since the last half marathon I ran, in early May. I've been trying to hit the half marathon mark, but I just get so bored with running.

I used to think I prefer running slower and doing long runs, like the half marathon, 30k, and hopefully someday a full marathon. Lately it's been annoying and hard. I don't want to give up, but it's just really hard getting myself back out there, for whatever reason.

I am thinking of doing varsity cross country at my university. I probably will at first. If I get too busy or it gets too hard, I can always quit halfway through. What I can't do is join halfway through. I'll at least join at first.

Anyways. Why is it so hard to think of something to be proud about? Geez.

#16 30 Day Writing Challenge- Something I always think "What if" about

There are three things I always think what if about.

The main one is "What if I never moved to the city I live in now?"
When I was 10 my parents split up and I moved back to my mom's old hometown with her, and we lived at my grandma's for 3 years until we bought a house.
I changed schools, which was the biggest thing. So many things are different.
I think if I stayed in the old town, the following would've happened:
1) I don't think I would've started running. I did do track RIGHT before I moved away, but I don't think I would've started running outside of school.
2) I wouldn't have been as good at computer stuff. We didn't have internet at the house... so... yeah. We were living in the middle of nowhere.
3) I feel like I probably would've had a boyfriend or two. I was more outgoing where I used to live. The guys there weren't as bad either.
4) I would've been more likely to drink and/or smoke.
5) I probably would've stuck in french immersion throughout highschool.
6) I don't think I would've discovered my love for psychology. I might've, but I doubt it.
7) I have no clue what I would do after high school. Not a lot of people go onto post secondary at that school. Although, my parents did have an education fund for me. I'm not sure what I would've done.
8) I probably wouldn't have a part time job. There weren't that many jobs around. I might've babysat.

The second one is "What if my dad didn't pass away?"
My dad passed away 2 years after we moved away from the old town we lived in. I had a restraining order against him, and I never visited him until I learned he got cancer. If he never got cancer, I probably wouldn't have talked to him. If he did get cancer but he didn't pass away... now that's a different story.
1) I probably would've visited my dad more after his cancer was gone.
2) I'm not sure if my parents would've gotten back together. They did both tell each other that they love each other, before he passed away. My dad had a girlfriend, but he obviously loved my mom more. My mom left him because he was an alcoholic.
3) If they did get back together, we might've moved back in with him. At the time, I remember thinking that I didn't want to do that.
4) If my Dad hadn't passed away, I wouldn't have as much money as I do. I inherited quite a bit of money from him, which I don't get until I'm 21, but I am using this year to help pay for my education at university as well as I am buying a car.

The last thing I always think "What if" about is "What if I had a sibling?".
Throughout those 3ish years especially, because there was just enough room for my mom and I at my grandma's. If I had a brother, he probably would've slept in another room. If I had a sister, I'm not sure who would sleep where. This is a weird thing to think about "who would sleep where" but it's something I do think about.
1) If I had a sibling I might be more outgoing. Depending on if they are younger or older. Either way, I would be more outgoing.
2) I would probably be less of a loner. Since I am an only child, I am fine doing things on my own. I'll go shopping by myself, do stuff around the house by myself. I don't have a problem with being alone. If I had a sibling I would've had someone my age around, so I probably would prefer doing things with different people.

I also think "What if" about what if I didn't join Destinations (a part of IB) in grade 7? I wouldn't have made the same friends. Things would be different.


I'm fine with the way my life turned out. I'm happy these things happened. I didn't want to move at the time, but now I wouldn't want to move back! I am sad that my father passed away, but I feel like if he didn't get cancer, and he just passed away at an old age, I wouldn't have gotten the chance to say goodbye, since I wasn't talking to him. Also, I hate to say it, but financially, it really is going to help me. I thank my Dad tremendously for leaving a chunk of money to me. It will definitely keep him in my thoughts. I'm buying a used car (hopefully in August), all thanks to him. Hopefully this money will keep me out of piling up debt in university. Also, even though I've always wanted a sibling, I am kind of glad I don't have one too. It saves time, money, energy. I like being an only child. I like being quiet and keeping to myself.

What do you think "What if?" about?

A past boyfriend/girlfriend? Debt? Marriage? House? A loss of a loved one? A child?

They're always these big life events where something major happens or when make a big decision like marriage.

#15 30 Day Writing Challenge- My Horoscope

For today's writing challenge I am supposed to write about my horoscope and whether or not I think it applies to my personality.

I already did a post similar to this, before. But I actually do have more to say about it.

I am a scorpio. Typically scorpios are considered to be sexy, passionate, either your enemy or your friend... here are some pictures to help me describe scorpios:



I found out something new about horoscopes. Each horoscope splits into three parts, called "decans". I am of the first decan of the scorpio. (October 24- Nov 2). Generally these scorpios are the most mysterious, magnetic and secretive. Also, they are the most sexual decan of all decans of all zodiacs.


Now onto the actual part of the writing challenge, do I think my zodiac describes me? Yes. Most of it, yes.

There are 2 things that I see as characteristics of the scorpio, that I don't think apply to me.
1: Having a "magnetic personality". I don't have a magnetic personality, but I do find quite often that people with problems in their lives tend to stick to me like magnets. So I don't know if that counts.
2: I read quite often that scorpios would rather be with a friend in the dark, than alone in the light. I would rather be alone in the light than with a friend in the dark. Whatever.

Anyways. I was doing a lot of research about zodiacs, and really there is nothing really to prove them. They are based off of greek myths and such. It's like saying I believe in Athena, if I say I believe in zodiacs.

Although, I honestly think my zodiac does apply to me. Quite often when I find out the zodiac of people I care about, I look it up, and I often find it applies to them a lot.

Now my problem with the zodiac is the daily horoscope, because I often find that they aren't accurate at all.

I don't want to say I fully believe in zodiacs and invest 100% of my support behind them, but I do think they are really cool, and really accurate.

Oh yeah, there is one last think that I think is interesting. Compatibility. There is a compatibility chart for zodiacs, and I never follow it.

Apparently Cancer, Pisces and other scorpios are my best matches.

I haven't met any pisces, other than my father. One of my best friends is a cancer, but I don't think I would like a male pisces because they are really kind and gentle. Which is a good thing. Unless they have like a secret dark side, I don't think I could last more than 2 years with a cancer. Then scorpio. 2 of my best friends are scorpios, and so is my mom. But as a match? I don't see it happening. I get annoyed really easy at other scorpios. Although this is fine for friendships, I don't think an actual relationship would last too long before we got in a disagreement. Since scorpios are stubborn... the resolution isn't too... well good.

I tend to be attracted to leo and gemini. I think it is because they are generally more social than I am. But they never last because they fall apart. But I just find them the most intriguing.

The other zodiac I like is taurus. I have had 2 friends that were tauruses. I am not the best of friends with them anymore... but I like tauruses. The only thing I hate about them is how blunt they are.

Obviously I am not pickiy about zodiacs, I don't think everyone is their zodiac. It's just interesting.

Last point! Just something random, but how I was talking about "being magnetic" earlier and how people with problems are often drawn to me... well I find anyone born in between November 23- February 19th is drawn to me, but I am not drawn to them. They are Saggitarius, Capricorn and Aquarius. They make good friends for me because I can usually get a lot more favours out of them, then they do, me. But anyways. Just a weird factoid.

Zodiacs are weird.

Better go have sex now because I am the first decan of scorpio.

Kidding.

#14 30 Day Writing Challenge- What I wore Today

This is my outfit today! I have never written a fashion blog post about what I've worn. So bear with me!

This is the overall outfit:

Top pieces:

The Blazer: I got from Winners for about $15-$20 (I forget). It has pink on the inside, which is what I was showing
The T-Shirt: From H&M. I don't remember the price, but I'm sure it was between $7-$12
The Necklace: I've owner this for a very long time. The brown stone in the middle, when you look through it, makes everything look funny, so I got it as a kid. I think it was around $10. I got it from Sears.

The Bottom Half:
 Shorts: I got these last year for $10 at Bluenotes

Shoes: I bought these from Ardenes for about $4. Usually their shoes are 2/$15, but the Ardenes I was at was closing, so everything was even cheaper!

Yay! I survived my first "What I wore Today" fashion blog post!

Formatting photos, sucks.

#13 30 Day Writing Challenge - My Opinion of my Body

For today's challenge I am to write about "Your opinion of your body and how comfortable you are with it".

I have so many flaws and things I hate about my body. But I also have a lot of good aspects, I think. In the past I've stressed out a lot more about the way I look, but nowadays I am not as bad.

I workout and lift weights a lot, so quite often my "freak outs" are thinking that either I'm gaining more fat or that I am not gaining enough muscle. It is so easy to just slip out of the workout regime and my body changes so quickly.

It's not really noticeable, but my body is changing all of the time. My fat on my stomach is really where you can tell if I am gaining weight or not. My muscle size changes often, too. In the past 2 months, I have actually gained an inch around my shoulders. In the past 5 months, I have gained an inch in my calves. But this is muscle, it's not fat.

So really, I see my body as this fine tuned thing that can change so quickly.

Overall I like my body. I'm fairly comfortable with it. My main concern is the amount of fat on my stomach, though. I need to eat REALLY healthy if I want that to go down, and I don't know if I want to do that. I want to be able to see my abs, but it's a lot of dietary commitment. I'm not sure if I'm ready for that.

I don't want to be one of these people that says "Everyone has flaws, we need to accept it and focus on the good points". Although it's mostly true, I think that if someone has a flaw that bothers them a LOT they shouldn't have to accept it. They can work on to change it. This relates to this article I read over a year ago, about kids getting plastic surgery for things like their ears, because their ears were so big they got surgery to make them look closer to their heads. If tweaking your flaw to make it better makes you feel more confident, then go for it.

#12 30 Day Writing Challenge- 5 Guys I find Attractive

This is a fun post ;)

For whatever reason I find comedy actors aged 35+ to be insanely handsome. So...

5 Men I find ATTRACTIVE


5. Alec Baldwin. I started liking him when I watched 30 Rock, and I also loved him in It's Complicated and on SNL.


4. Ed Helms. I stared loving him in the Office and then I also like him the the Hangover series, Cedar Rapids and Jeff who Lives at Home.


3. Adam Scott. I fell in love with him on Parks and Rec. I'm not sure if it's him I love, or his character, Ben.


2.  James Marsden. I fell in love with him on 30 Rock as Liz Lemon's husband. I also saw him in the movie "Sex Drive" which was really funny. He would've been first, but I love my #1 more as an actor.


1.  Steve Carrell. I first saw him in the movies Evan Almighty and Get Smart, which is where I really started liking him as an actor. Then I started loving him on the Office. I also love his movies Anchorman, The 40 Year Old Virgin, Dan in Real Life, Date Night, Crazy Stupid Love and the Incredible Burt Wonderstone. He is my absolute favourite actor and he's very easy on the eyes.

#11 30 Day Writing Challenge- My Family

Day 11! Woooo!

My family.

My family is super small. I'll start with my mom's side.

So there is my mom who was born in 1954, and she is the only person in my family I live with. She has two brothers, both not-married and divorced. One of my uncles has 2 kids, one is 10 and the other is in his 30's. The 10 year old is one of the closest members of my family, along with my mom.

My grandma was born in 1917 and she is still alive. My grandfather lived from 1918-1994, he passed away the year before I was born.

Other than this, I have several very distance cousins, some in Arizona, Florida, etc. I have a Great Aunt in Montreal, Canada.

My Dad's Side. My Dad lived from 1950-2007 and passed away with cancer. He had a brother who also passed away in 2007, but was 13 years older than him. He has a sister, my aunt, who is married and alive and she has 2 kids, and her kids have a total of 3 kids. So I have 5 cousins there. My uncle who passed away had 3 sons and they all had kids and are married. One of the sons has 3 kids, and I used to be really close to them as kids.

I never met my grandparents since they passed away like 10 years before I was born.

My dad also had 2 other daughters in his first marriage, and they are 15 years older than me (they're twins). One of them has a kid, so I am technically a half-aunt, although I haven't seen my sisters since the funeral.

I rarely see my Dad's family anymore, since my parents divorced before he passed away. The last time I saw them was a few years ago at my cousin's wedding, in 2009 or 2010. I see my aunt maybe once a year.

All of the family on my mom's side that I mentioned (other than the distant cousins and my uncle's older son) live in the same city I do.

I am not big on family. I think that society is beyond the bonds of family. At least I am. There are quite a few family members I have just cut off from my life. I think it is weird to do favours for people you don't like, and to hang out with people you don't like. I don't know. Family just isn't important to me.

#10 30 Day Writing Challenge- Shuffle iPod

For day 10 of the writing challenge, I am supposed to shuffle my iPod and write down the first 10 songs.


1. Better in Time- Leona Lewis
2. The Christmas Song- Justin Bieber
3. Not that Far Away - Jennette McCurdy
4. Red White and You- These Kids Wear Crowns
5. Perfect- Cody Simpson
6. Solo- Demi Lovato
7. Back in Time - Pitbull
8. Solo- Jason Derulo
9. Sober- P!nk
10. Glad you Came- The Wanted

As you can see, I pretty much listen to whatever is popular. I have a lot of christmas music on my iTunes too.

I'm not a big music person. A lot of people are obsessed with music. I listen to music whenever I'm at the gym, walking somewhere or on my computer, but in general I am not that big of a music person. I see people on twitter all of the time like "MUSIC IS MY LIFE!" and I'm just like whoa calm down.

My Dad was really into music, he minored in it university. I guess I didn't inherit that part of him.

I tried learning to play the guitar about 4 or 5 years ago, but it didn't work out.

#9 30 Day Writing Challenge- How important I think education is + Other Ramblings

I THINK EDUCATION IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT!

I don't even specifically mean in school, but that too. Learning and educating is a life-long process. It is not something you do until grade 12, and then choose to go to university or college or not, it is a life-long process. You are always learning.

Public education can be very flawed with corrupt teachers and lesson requirements. But private education can also be flawed. I don't have a big stance here.

I think education in schools strictly relies on how many boundaries teachers are willing to push in their classrooms.

I'm sorry this is a serious post, but I should let you know I am currently typing and bouncing to "I found you" by the Wanted. I must be talented. I apologize for this interruption.

I want to be a teacher someday, because I am so fascinated with the idea of teaching and learning. I love to learn new things. I think I will always be in school. Or at least always learning.

I want to do something big in education. I'm not sure what, yet. But I am going to.

I don't want to be cliche, but I hate it when I say "I want" to do something. I should say "I am going to" do something. I just wrote on my twitter "I want to be a city councillor". I am going to be a city councillor.

I am actually really bad for getting hyped up about something and then not doing it. I do it all the time, it drives me nuts. I need to start saying yes and actually doing these things.

I hate putting these things out into the internet, too, because then if I don't do them, I'm a failure. I can think of so many things.
1. A long time ago in an old blog I used to talk about wanting to volunteer a lot, but then I never did.
2. Recently I made a blog post about how I keep trying to start writing a book but then I can't, so I am officially starting. Yeah, I got about 40 pages into that and I haven't looked at it in over a month. Maybe eventually... but it's just a lost cause now.

I don't know how to imprint this. Do I need to tattoo it onto my forehead?

Goodness. It's time to get back to homework. I've been internetting for the past 2 hours and I only got 15 minutes of homework done. Whoops.

#8 30 Day Writing Challenge- What You Ate Today

My wrist has been really messed up today. I went to the hospital to ensure it wasn't broken, and it isn't, as I basically knew. But I was taking the day off work because of my wrist, so I figured I should use the time to actually figure out what's wrong with it. It's just a stress injury.

Anyways. Here is what I ate today:

Breakfast:
- Coffee w/ milk and sugar
- Cereal- a mix between 2 different kinds of kashi, cheerios and special k satisfaction, with skim milk

- Iced coffee from tim hortons

Lunch:
-I went to Dennys and had 1 whole wheat pancake, 4 egg whites, iced coffee and yogurt

- Iced Coffee

Dinner:
- Rice with corn
- Apple
- Coffee

Later I am probably going to make some yonanas with banana and pineapple. Mmm.

I didn't eat that much today, compared to usual. But I am also not working out today and I've been lounging around the hours for the past 5 hours... so... I don't really need the calories. But I still have to eat!

I've also had more coffee than usual. 5 Coffees. Wow. It's partially because I went to tim hortons twice today. On average I usually have 2-3 cups of coffee a day. Weekends I usually have more.

Well. I guess I was mostly healthy other than the coffee and I didn't have as many calories as usual. At dennys I ate healthy. So... that's good!

#7 30 Day Writing Challenge- 5 Pet Peeves

Getting back on track with this! I'm going to try not to forget anymore. Before I forgot, I was actually writing the blog post the day before and then posting it the next morning.

Anyways

5 Pet Peeves:

5. When my pens stop working. I hate it so much. Just work. Okay?

4. The ice at the bottom of iced capps from Tim Hortons. I always drink at the top of the iced capp because I hate just drinking all of the liquid and having a bunch of ice left over. It drives me nuts. I rarely have slushies anymore, but I used to have the same issue with them as well.

3. When my blankets come off of my bed. I hate having to tuck my sheets back in. It usually takes me a week before I finally do. It's just annoying.

2. Dog hair on everything all of the time, especially when I'm wearing black. I always wear pajamas when I'm at home because I hate getting dog hair on my clothes. One time I had a friend over at my house and I was wearing black yoga pants and we were just sitting on the couch and it was driving me crazy that my pants were covered in dog hair. I kept picking it off and he kept trying to get me to stop. Drives me nuts.

1. When I go for a run and I am like 15km away from the house and then get super tired, and nobody can drive me back home. I guess it's a good thing. But it's happened like 3-5 times where I was extremely far away from my house and then I get really tired. I just head home and "hack it", I run and walk. Sometimes I find if I do sprints and then walk it moves faster, or if I do intervals. Tired... bored is the same thing. Sometimes I get bored with running and then I find if I start sprinting that it goes by faster. But then I get more tired and out of breath from sprints. It's a win-lose.

Anyways. I'm sure there are more things that bug me, but I can't think of any right now. Do you have any pet peeves?

#3 30 Day Writing Challenge- A Book I love

A book I love. Hmm...

I could pick from a couple. I am not a big book reader because I am too lazy to make the time to read. But when I do read, I read a lot of non-fiction. The last book I read was Deborah Kenny's Born to rise.

But my favourite book would have to be Bossypants by Tina Fey. It is an autobiography about her life.

Tina Fey is one of my favourite writers, comedians and actresses. She's a big role model to me.

I love Bossypants so much because it is hilarious.

A lot of people who know who Tina Fey is just think of her as an actress or a comedian and then think that her book might be bad because she's just an actress. But she's a writer! She wrote for SNL for 9 years, and originally her major in university was english before she switched to drama.

Her book is amazing. It is also the only book I've ever read cover-to-cover, twice.

I want to read it again, I haven't read it since last summer.

I would read it just because it's so funny. Even for the moderate fan of Tina Fey or even SNL because she does mention Saturday Night Live quite often. Or even the aspiring comedian because she talks about her rise to fame... sort of.

This is part of the back cover of the book. 

#2 30 Day Writing Challenge- Something I feel strongly about (stance on abortion)

The second topic for the 30 day writing challenge is "Something you feel strongly about".

There are so many things I feel strongly about, but for whatever reason "abortion" keeps popping into my head, which is weird, because I tend to not get too involved in abortion debates. But I will write about it nevertheless.

My stance on abortion is pro-choice.

My main and pretty much only argument is that if you are against abortion- do not get an abortion, don't prevent others from getting an abortion just because you think it is wrong. Just because your opinion or religious belief's stance is against abortion, doesn't mean others' is. So just practice your beliefs, yourself. Don't force your beliefs onto others.

To me, it's like trying to force people to celebrate christmas, or to like pizza. Some people just don't celebrate christmas. Some people just don't like pizza.

If you like pizza, you aren't going to force others to eat pizza, especially if they don't like pizza. So don't push your pro-life arguments onto people.

It's the same with gay marriage. If you are not gay, don't get married to someone of the same sex. But how does 2 other people of the same sex getting married, effect you? So just stay out of it.

I do understand the argument that it is "murder" in a sense. I don't want to get into the argument of the "unborn fetus" too much, but honestly, even though I never want to murder someone, I don't think it is that bad. That fetus, even if it was a little baby at 5 months old, has no original thoughts... or at least thoughts it can remember. In my books, that is what defines a person.

End of story.

#1 30 Day Writing Challenge - 5 Ways to Win my Heart

This is the first day of the 30 day writing challenge!

5 Ways to Win my Heart

1. Accept me for who I am. I know this is cliche, but I am weird, awkward, quiet and uncomfortable around guys I like, the first few times I talk to them. If you accept me for being awkward and weird, that will automatically be something that I would love.

2. Be the confident one. I am not the most confident person. I can be, but most often I am shy and quiet. So if you make the first move, or at least lead the majority of the relationship along, I will be quite happy. Once I am comfortable with a guy, you can expect the roles to change sometimes though, and I will become the confident one.

3. Do the unexpected. If I am not expecting something to happen, I will love it 5x more. It can be anything, really. I don't know why. I am generally not big on surprises, but I do like the unexpected. Don't be completely un expecting though. For example: If we never talk, to not come up to me and kiss me.

4. Engage my mind in something. If you aren't overly intellectual or up for a good argument or conversation, don't expect anything to happen between us. It's kind of a deal breaker for me.

5. Make me laugh. Again, this is cliche, but it is so true. I am a big lover of comedy tv shows like the Office, Parks and Rec and 30 rock. I also like watching standup comedy and improv. I am not overly funny myself, at least not on command, but I like a guy that can make me laugh. It's not like I want you to start performing standup when we first meet, but it's nice to have someone who can make you laugh.


I feel like this is something you would put on a dating site. So hit me up @SarahFloria on twitter ;). JUST KIDDING.

Just on top of what I just wrote, something that I can't stand in a guy is someone who doesn't seem like they care. Like they put in no effort into the relationship, they don't express as much emotion towards me as I do to them, they just seem bored. I can't stay in a relationship like that.

So just sign your name in the comments below and I'll contact you. Nope, no I won't.